My Therapist Wants Me To Do This.

[FindingMyself88]

I just can't let it go. If I had done one simple thing, it wouldn't have happened. Or at least not so easily. He robbed me of my ability to sleep. He robbed me of so much!! Having Bristol to sleep with makes it a little easier but not much. I catch myself waking in a pure jerk at night, fighting off whatever is on me, whether it is my comforter or dogs.

I am so easily triggered, even more now that I've opened up… is that normal? I thought talking about it was suppose to help? I've tried painting like my T said, but anytime I try I just freeze and dissociate!

 

[jmni]

@FindingMyself88 I don't want to take over your thread, but I think that it is actually normal to have some heightened symptoms after you've spoken out. I mean, it brings everything out in the open for people to see and and you are more exposed. You forced yourself to think of it all over again.... Anyway, after telling a therapist about incidents like this we often get sick so I think it is normal.

Despite that I think that she means that its better for you overall and in the long term.