My Triggers

[TLight]

Thought listing what I've figured out in the course of 30 years:

Disrespectful treatment
Rudeness
Males living in my house with no job
Selfish males
Males displaying aggressive or assertive behavior towards me
Male authority figures
Being made to feel powerless in my life (no voice in finances etc)
Males making sexist 'jokes'
Males who 'put women in their place' by demeaning, etc
Not being asked for permission to alter my personal space
Being micromanaged and criticized by males
Bully males

That's all I can think of right now.

 

[Seasounds]

A good list! It takes time, and cultivated self-awareness, to have such knowledge. I share most items on your list.

 

[TLight]

Some more:
Men who make themselves energetically 'big'
People I know nothing about (I think I dissociate, I kinda shrink like I'm not there)
People in general
Chaotic energy around me
Not being heard

 

[Rizen]

Any belittling or prejudice really gets to me too. People who look down on other people are weak and not worth our time. By being tolerant and treating people right we can be the bigger person. That helps me let it go. Somewhat.

 

[greenleaf]

Fast movements near me when I'm confused in a certain way (ok that's a little vague, but...)

 

[Caterpillar]

Authority figures are a MASSIVE trigger for me too, though only if they have real, physical authority (meaning they have both the ability and legal right to enforce their authority with physical force--a position mostly limited to law enforcement and doctors). Though I suppose I go a bit psycho on less authority figures too, but in the form of laughing and asking why they think I should obey them, which is still a stress reaction since I'm always extremely hyper-stimulated with racing heart and what not in those situations. I'm always pure fight-or-flight with authority figures, I just usually go for fight unless I think they can physically hurt me. As you can imagine, this has given me more than a few problems in life. I've lost track of how many groups I've been kicked out of and jobs I've been fired from because of my crazy reaction to authority. I really can't help it, though.

 

[TLight]

I get ya, Greenleaf. I have that too. Contributes to my driving issues.......and being around crowd issues.

Caterpillar, my Dad was a cop and I've been through the doctor mill having cfs and fibro for 20 years and I have sworn, no matter what, I'm never going to another doctor cause I'll tear their heads off and spit them out. I never once felt any compassion, only judgment. Plus going through the disability battle with my life in the hands of doctors and lawyers and psyches.

I've been hauled off by cops in the course of suicide attempts and my ex even called the cops and had me hauled to the psyche ward one night when I got mad. He pulled the crazy card........and he knew my COP DAD was my torturer for 13 years! nice guy.....

I have so many people to forgive.