Need Some Support

[sun seeker]

I see suicide as not an option, because of the suffering it would cause others as well as myself. If not for that, I'd be gone long ago. I don't want to feel this pain anymore. And I have no idea what more to do.

 

[ladee]

Then call an ambulance and have them take you to the hospital if you feel you have no options. There is no need for the suffering you are going thru. The pain is not motivating you and that concerns me. Just call and let others tend to it for a little while. And be honest, gut honest with your T, he can't understand if you don't get completely honest with the depth of desperation you feel. hope you take care of yourself and not wait any longer.
If you don't know what to do, then listen to us. We know you are in pain, we know you can get help. So make a choice. said with compassion.

 

[Tinyflame]

I do understand too @sun seeker , it's something that feels we expect that response, that it is as it is, right back to a cellular level, it's so deep & pervasive.

It is imperative to be honest. :hug: :hug: :hug:

PS, I do the same work. We give all day. At some point there's a time to try to accept.

 

[sun seeker]

I called my therapist and told him this is the worst crisis I have ever been in, I have no place else to turn and desperately need his help.

I do hear what you are saying about calling an ambulance; the trouble is if I do that, I am saying it's so bad that I will never work in this town again. The health care system is tiny and everyone knows everyone. My livelihood depends on compartmentalizing my work from the rest of my life.

I am just going to try to sleep or at least curl up and go numb until my therapist gets back to me.

 

[sun seeker]

I guess the pain isn't motivating me because I have already tried so many ways to make it stop, and nothing helps.

 

[Tinyflame]

It will be ok @sun seeker . Think Stop Sign. :hug: :hug:

 

[ladee]

I understand, try to get some rest. Thinking of you. :hug:

 

[Lotis]

I hope you are feeling better. Be grateful you have a therapist to talk too and reach out to. I am still struggling from losing mine and having a very hard time. Hopefully your therapist can help and offer some suggestions to relieve your pain. I understand you not wanting to call an ambulance - I wouldn't either. But if it gets to the point where you feel like you can no longer go on you need to fight and live.
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[Tinyflame]

Another candlle for you @sun seeker , xox. :hug:

 

[SoSadGuilty]

I'm lighting a mental candle for you too @sun seeker You've been an incredibly kind person to me and you deserve some peace.

 

[sun seeker]

I so appreciate everyone's kindness. I just don't know what to say right now. I'm just getting through a little at a time. Was able to get out of the house and do some things today, but it's still bad. Thank you, all of you, for being there and understanding.

 

[Tinyflame]

We'll stay with you @sun seeker , xoxox. :hug: :hug: