Sufferer Need To Branch Out For More Support

[Malaenis]

Normally I'm really shy, but my boyfriend of a year and a half, we had so much in common, broke up with me because I relied solely on him. It was, as he put it, "bleeding him dry". It was a wake up call for me that I have a lot of healing to do.

I was abused by both my parents. Then had an abusive relationship for almost 3 years. Up until the abusive relationship my cptsd was more manageable.

I need to find people who can understand what I'm going through, and that I can talk to.

So here I am. Hi everyone.

 

[Chava]

Welcome!

 

[Glara]

You'll find a lot of friends here. I have a friend who suffers cptsd, he's actually an ex, We dated in our 20s and reconnected on FB about 8 years ago. Last year we rekindled our relationship and that's when he told me he has PTSD. He is suicidal and has told me his plans to end his life .He broke it off with me in March but is still in touch. It's been very hard emotionally, I have nobody in my life to talk about this with so I come here. I keep a diary on here and sometimes people comment on my posts. It's nice to have a place to talk to people that's have some clue about all this.

I think you came to the right place to branch out, welcome.

 

[darwin]

Welcome @Malaenis I got here just before you. I also just lost my partner, only it's because she got some attention from somebody else. Sigh

I'm sorry you have to experience such a loss whike having PTSD, it's terrible. I've found this community to be very helpful. I wish you the best here and in life!

 

[Malaenis]

Thank you all.

Yeah, my family is all abusive, except one aunt who doesn't talk to me much. I have friends, but they're either so emotionally together they don't get it and think I'm crazy, or they have so much going on in their own lives they're not around when I need it. Which is why I clung to my (ex)boyfriend. He is such a great guy, and really tried to support me because he knew anything I did was because of the CPTSD, and that I had that because of the horrible things I'd been through. He knew it wasn't my fault, but never told me I was being unreasonable because of my fear of being abandoned or neglected. So he put himself through hell to be there for me for a year and a half. And we did have so much in common, it breaks my heart now. If we'd met later in life, after I'd healed and had a better support system, things would have worked. But at least it opened my eyes. Now I'm going to heal before risking putting anyone else through all that. Especially my son, I don't want him growing up like I did. I'm reading Pete Walker's book, Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving. So far it's really helped me see how much my mother DID abuse me, and how so many things I don't like about myself are symptoms of the trauma from my parents and other people in my life growing up. I might have to start a diary on here as well, Glara. Sounds like a great way to get everything out.

 

[intothelight]

@Malaenis Welcome to the forum!

This site is a great place for information and the support of the other members is amazing. Its a good resource in building a support system, but do try to find and include others in your life. As you heal, it is easier to make and retain healthy friendships/relationships.

 

[Truthful_Whispers]

Hello

 

[Deleted member 29920]

:hug: s @Malaenis

 

[Milo's papa]

Normally I'm really shy, but my boyfriend of a year and a half, we had so much in common, broke up with...

Welcome Malaenis, I hope you find lots of support here.

 

[ghotiff]

Welcome :)

There is lots of support here.

 

[Malaenis]

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This is my first step in finding support. I shy away from getting to know people in person because of all I've been through, and all I still struggle with. I know so many people look at anyone that has anything mentally not perfect(which no one is) like they're crazy. I actually know quite a lot of people, but they don't truly know me. So this for me is like that first baby step.

 

[Blackbird89]

Welcome :)