New Here: Suspected PTSD From Chaotic Childhood And Abusive Marriage

[cornflake]

My suspected PTSD was caused by a chaotic childhood and a horrible, abusive marriage. I'm looking for comfort and reassurance that I am okay. Maybe share some stories with people who have been through some of the items similiar to what I have been through.

 

[Farine]

Heya Cornflake,
I'm thinking that maybe there might be a cool story behind your handle. Welcome to the forum! I'm sorry that so much suffering happened - healing is very possible although I can testify that it's not easy. Okay, for me means doing the work.. going for the grand quest to be more than I am now. The work on my identity to bestow a better heritage to my two daughters is a goal that I keep in front of me at all times. I'm curious. What does 'Okay' mean for you?

I'm also hoping that you'll come back often and keep posting. Three sentences is a start.. just writing anything is a huge effort. When you feel ready, writing can be a big help. To me, writing is like a perfectly warm bath.

Good to meet you!
Farine

 

[Deleted member 541]

I suggest that you get an official diagnosis of PTSD before you *suspect* anything. PTSD is not something I would wish on my worst enemy......

 

[whitemagic]

Hi, It sounds like we may have similar historys. My mother was narcisstic and did not protect me as a child. I was sexually abused by a brother in law and an uncle. Mental,verbal and emotional abuse. It set the stage for picking an abusive spouse. I was trapped in an abusive marriage for 25 yrs. My children, all young adults now, were abused. I tried very hard to protect them but was unable to stem the damage. I am 56 now and am going through a bitter divorce from a diagnosed narcisstic psycopath, who loves to play games with the court system, where I get to be abused all over again. I am going to be okay. I am going to work to be okay. I go to the gym, take antidepressants, see a psychologist and have found my way here, like you. I too have difficulty with the diagnosis but I keep reading. I don't know anyone else who has PTSD and therefore do the best I can. It is hard to fathom that it is a life long thing that we can manage with periodic flare ups. Whitemagic

 

[whitemagic]

I also like to garden. I have found that music helps me as well. Whitemagic