New Member - Surgery

[rocrileth]

My story i thought my life was good but now on my second marriage it too is falling apart. I had major surgery 5 years ago where i lost my colon and created an ostomy for the rest of my life. Since the surgery my memory from the past kicked into gear and the sexual abuse from my uncle when i was 10 to the age of 13 and the alcoholic grand parents where i grew up, my life is a mess. I suffer from depression and i am on medication but still trying to find the right dose. I have three children who i love to death but my love for everyone else is cold. My life is cold right now and i am not happy with me and have no idea what direction to go. One hope is i will begin a ptsd group in janurary at the local hospital and i will venture on my own until i can be happy for myself because all i do is bring down the people who love me. That is my story in short.

 

[Nicky31]

Hello there. I only joined yesterday too and haven't even worked out how to introduce myself yet, but well done for making links here and having the courage to tell people about yourself. Nic

 

[bonnecanyon]

Hi Rocrileth

Welcome to the forum. :hello:

I'm so sorry that you are going thru this right now. Is there any way that you can go to ptsd group sooner than January? Learn all you can about ptsd - check out the links in the left-hand column.

You will find the support on this website to be very helpful so stay connected and take your time sharing your story.

Hang in there,
BC

 

[Manic11]

Welcome to the forum!
I hope you get the help that you need. This is a very good place for information and support along the way!

Peace and Hope
Manic

 

[tryintobreathe]

Welcome to the forum...

I am still fairly new myself but I can tell you it's a great source of information and support. I understand about only feeling love for your children. I have three children as well and I love them to death. They are the only thing that matter to me most of the time.

Jen

 

[macpayne]

Hang in there pal!! I don't think PTSD ever goes away however I believe we can all get better with hard work and determination. Attack one symptom at a time, seek help from a therapist and hopefully all the pieces of the puzzle will fit together. This isn't your fault and It takes a strong person to know they need help and address it!
Best wishes!
((hugs))

 

[RosieNorth]

Hi Rocrileth, I'm sorry to hear about the trouble you're having. Writing it all down here does help. I too have just ended my second marriage and feel that the only good family relationship I have is with my kids.
I think th ptsd workshop sounds like a great idea.

 

[onebravegirl]

:hello:
Just wanted to say Welcome to the forum. Talk all you want here, there is someone always around. We are world wide so someone is always around!
Hang on till January. Savour time with your kids if they are what brings you the most joy. I know that is the case for me. Best wishes,
O

 

[jezzicaz789]

My story i thought my life was good but now on my second marriage it too is falling apart. I had major surgery 5 years ago where i lost my colon and created an ostomy for the rest of my life. Since the surgery my memory from the past kicked into gear and the sexual abuse from my uncle when i was 10 to the age of 13 and the alcoholic grand parents where i grew up, my life is a mess. I suffer from depression and i am on medication but still trying to find the right dose. I have three children who i love to death but my love for everyone else is cold. My life is cold right now and i am not happy with me and have no idea what direction to go. One hope is i will begin a ptsd group in janurary at the local hospital and i will venture on my own until i can be happy for myself because all i do is bring down the people who love me. That is my story in short.

I am also a new member. Nice to join this forum.