RNrecovery
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I have posted a few times and wasn’t sure if I was supposed to give an intro. I have a history of CSA, physical/emotional abuse as a child. I came down with Bipolar 1 my freshman year of college. It was a blessing in disguise because it forced me to seek out cognitive therapy and work hard to create a stable balanced life.
About 6 years ago my abusive parent and spouse died in a murder suicide. I am an only child and picked up the pieces and moved on. At the time I powered through and was fine. Covid rocked my boat through. An already high stress job felt untenable. I couldn’t do my normal activities. Three family members died in close succession. I’ve been struggling with flash backs, panic attacks, and have bre close to suicide more than I care to admit (I’m ok right now).
Im trying to put the pieces back together now. I am in therapy and it’s a godsend but I have a hard time accepting I need it. Often or feels alone to be going through this.
About 6 years ago my abusive parent and spouse died in a murder suicide. I am an only child and picked up the pieces and moved on. At the time I powered through and was fine. Covid rocked my boat through. An already high stress job felt untenable. I couldn’t do my normal activities. Three family members died in close succession. I’ve been struggling with flash backs, panic attacks, and have bre close to suicide more than I care to admit (I’m ok right now).
Im trying to put the pieces back together now. I am in therapy and it’s a godsend but I have a hard time accepting I need it. Often or feels alone to be going through this.