, i feel a lot of things -
This makes sense to me. Feelings ranging from terror to anger, to confusion. But the sadness? There's going to be grieving in there as well. Me personally? Dealing with trauma I experienced as an adult gave me a bit of a foothold in terms of learning about my feelings, how they feel in my body, how to manage them, and even how to use them constructively to heal and move forward. So that when it came to dealing with my childhood stuff, which was even more complicated, I'd had practice. Which helped a lot.
Where your life is now? Post crash? Is also going to be your mind's way of relfecting a little on the journey to this point - it gives perspective to our childhood, but also gives us a direction for our grief. "This is where I ended up..."
Sometimes visiting the site of our trauma can be healing, and sometimes we may just need to sit and observe: observe the place, but also the things going on internally that the place brings up. And quiet reflection is totally fine.... Unless it's becoming a problem, or a sticking point.
Some people find that journalling can be a really helpful way of getting the feelings processed if they seem to just be stuck on repeat. But also for RTA victims, sometimes a bit of a grieving 'ceremony' at the site can help bring some closure to the traumatic event. That can be anything from laying flowers, to listening to pre-selected music. Those 'ceremonies' are much like a funeral - psychologically, they help our hrain understand that the event was traumatic, but is over and part of the past, which can help move forward...
Just some thoughts...
