New therapist and brainspotting

[Angelwings]

My new therapist helped me out today with brainspotting. It is pretty amazing or the placebo effect is amazing, either way, I don't feel terrified as much as I did this morning, which is super awesome, because now I am not being triggered into flashbacks. Phew! We also discovered that I have "activation points" that make me feel triggered right where you would normally make eye contact with someone, so my old therapist always used to tell me, "You're looking everywhere but me!" because she wanted me to make eye contact with her constantly. It would make me feel more upset. Now I understand why I had such a hard time with it, it's because making eye contact triggers me. Anyway, my new therapist had me look around the room and find a spot where I felt more at ease and could feel my feet grounded better, and this spot that I found really decreased my fear and adrenaline. She told me that I could use that spot any time I felt triggered. I tried using it throughout the day and it's amazing how everything changed. I'm still getting waves of terror, but they don't last long and they aren't as intense, so YAY! Thanks to everyone who told me to get a new therapist!

 

[Angelwings]

I emailed my new therapist and told her that I was feeling better either from using the resource spot, or from placebo, either way I was happy and she said this:

"I doubt you were feeling better because of a placebo effect. You found a resource spot and practiced using it and it worked because you were tapping into a neural network in your brain that is associated with calming;) good work;)"

A neural network in my brain associated with calming...interesting!