New Therapists Look Great

[just me here]

I finally found a person that will see me as often as necessary, has trained with EMDR experts, has lots of experience, can prescribe and actually finished my sentence for me several times while doing the intrucuctory exam. We have the skills and capabilities part now, I am hoping for trust and I will have a counselor again!

My other therapist is trained in relaxation techniques, teaches bio feedback and I was referred to him for that reason but we never got past "so whats bothering you?" in 3 visits, I figured my referral was over and was really sad to see it end because the guy gave me some great advice that hit me right between the eyes. I just found out yesterday I can see him as his schedule allows as long as I want to, thats great news as I already trust him and was hoping I would somehow be able to keep seeing him.

I have hopefully left all of the counselors that took twenty years to finally diagnose the PTSD behind. I wasted so much time on drugs and groups and books and sessions aimed at depression alone, I was totally frustrated as I was working so hard and kept finding myself right back where i had started. PTSD explains all of that, they just didn't see it, and got frustrated at my lack of progress and regular regressions to day one.

Thats over, this new attempt begins.

 

[seedling]

just me here - I'm so pleased for you and this new opportunity to do some great work!

There's nothing like having the right person with the skills to get you moving in a positive direction. Let us know how it goes :D

 

[Queen Boudica]

That's great just me here! It's good to have a counsellor you can trust. Sounds like you are well on your way to a good life. I wish you the very best of luck. :)

 

[just me here]

AND, this week marks 2 weeks without seeing or hearing anything from my fatherandstepmother. They agreed to eliminate contact and have kept their word, probably right now only because they beleive I will recant and of course I worry that there will be could be another confrontation when they realise I am not going to, but so far so good. 49 years old and they think I am like a little kid that runs away as far as sitting under the mailbox and all they have to do is leave the porch light on and the door unlocked.

They will never see themselves as the world sees them, in fact when it comes to being a pious self righteous pain in the arse, if they do realise that the rest of us are rolling our eyes and biting our tongues, I am convinced they get a jolt of religious better than you example endorphines

You don't realise how many ways a major stresser affects you until you eliminate it, hopefully more benifits are still to be revealed. Looking forward to being glad I did this 10 years ago instead of wishing I had done it for keeps 35 years ago.
I honestly beleive I would have been better off as a foster kid ward of the state with parents that wanted kids and not little versions of themselves, banging themselves about the head with the books of their chosen faith.

2 weeks and I am so much happier than I could have imagined I would be. They are gone and I can say 1000 times a day, "I don't have to even think about their opinion of this or that or the other anymore, it doesn't matter, it won't lead to an argument, guilt, or public embarrassment on their behalf, ever again". Wonderful.

 

[Srain]

49 years old and they think I am like a little kid that runs away as far as sitting under the mailbox and all they have to do is leave the porch light on and the door unlocked.

Isn't that funny? Not in a haha way but in a sad, weird, unfathomable way? Is it any wonder we have reacted the way we always have? I understand this completely, or in my own complete way I should say. Good on you! It sounds like you have really gotten that right one and I can appreciate the long haul to get to where you are at and the endless sessions. Maybe they were all necessary but it's nice to finally be here.

peace and continued healing,
Rain

 

[seedling]

Happy Day! just me here. If they do try to make contact again you won't be ready to give up your new-found peace of mind. Don't want to miss any of those 1,000 times!
Congrats.

 

[ronin47]

That's wonderful you've found a more promising path toward healing. I can definately empathize with that frustration. I didn't have to wait as long as you did to find someone who actually took the time to figure out what was really wrong but when I did it was bittersweet. It was like, "I know now that professionals like this do exist. I know now it's possible for someone to actually be able to acurately diagnose and treat me. So why couldn't I have found them sooner!?!"

Oh well. Nothing I can do about it now. :cool:

 

[just me here]

[quote="ronin47, post: 258114

Oh well. Nothing I can do about it now. :cool:[/quote]

Thats right, you gotta give up on having a better past and devote youself to having a better future. So much closer to happening when you have help and you can make the bad things stop happening over and over.