silkleaves
Gold Member
Welcome, and Im glad you found your way here too. I really struggled, and still do at times, with "deserving" the label / treatment and care for PTSD. When I go to the VA hospital, and see the other vets there, yeah...I feel like, what the heck am I doing here? Like Im taking away from the people who actually need it. Its a huge reason why I have not been back to therapy, its hard for me to walk in there.
But I think that it must be a really common thing, because I have had a lot of vets tell me to never compare myself or what Im going through with anyone else. That I will always find someone worse off than me who Im going to be able to rationalize, needs or deserves the help more than I do. But that doesn't take away from the fact that I need help too, and I deserve a quality of life like anyone else does.
I forget that sometimes...a lot of times really. and I have to constantly remind myself that I do deserve help and support. Its a lot easier to tell someone else and believe it for them than to tell myself that :) But assuring you helps me to assure myself at the same time...we all deserve it. So dont feel like a fraud...and Im willing to bet your doctor can see through your own self doubt, because I think a lot of people do feel that way. With soldiers coming home from war and that being a major thing we see about PTSD, its too easy to compare ourselves against that and go "what? they are the ones who went through something *big* I just need to figure out how to deal!" while at the same time knowing full well if we could deal, we woudlnt be where we are....because its not a matter of just dealing, not for us anymore than it is for anyone else with PTSD.
Sorry so long... like I said, Im convincing myself too, so blabbering a bit.
But I think that it must be a really common thing, because I have had a lot of vets tell me to never compare myself or what Im going through with anyone else. That I will always find someone worse off than me who Im going to be able to rationalize, needs or deserves the help more than I do. But that doesn't take away from the fact that I need help too, and I deserve a quality of life like anyone else does.
I forget that sometimes...a lot of times really. and I have to constantly remind myself that I do deserve help and support. Its a lot easier to tell someone else and believe it for them than to tell myself that :) But assuring you helps me to assure myself at the same time...we all deserve it. So dont feel like a fraud...and Im willing to bet your doctor can see through your own self doubt, because I think a lot of people do feel that way. With soldiers coming home from war and that being a major thing we see about PTSD, its too easy to compare ourselves against that and go "what? they are the ones who went through something *big* I just need to figure out how to deal!" while at the same time knowing full well if we could deal, we woudlnt be where we are....because its not a matter of just dealing, not for us anymore than it is for anyone else with PTSD.
Sorry so long... like I said, Im convincing myself too, so blabbering a bit.
