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Sufferer Newly Diagnosed Due To Husbands Attempted Suicide
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Thank you Anthony for the welcome, I thank you for all you do here, you are amazing, and the support you get from members is unbelievable, so thank you to each and everyone of you.
Having a shocking day, my mind is working over time. Wish I could sleep.
I want to sleep for 100 days.
I took my son car to the Auto Centre the have classed his car as a writer off, he is upset because it was his favourite car he is only 20, he was so happy with it, I'm just thankful he is okay after the crash.
The only thing I'm thankful for today is that it is 1 day closer until Sept 24th when I finally get to the psychiatrist.
Thank you for your time.
Having a shocking day, my mind is working over time. Wish I could sleep.
I want to sleep for 100 days.
I took my son car to the Auto Centre the have classed his car as a writer off, he is upset because it was his favourite car he is only 20, he was so happy with it, I'm just thankful he is okay after the crash.
The only thing I'm thankful for today is that it is 1 day closer until Sept 24th when I finally get to the psychiatrist.
Thank you for your time.
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I just want to say thank you for the replies, and I will be leaving this amazing forum, the best run one I have ever come across.
Things are a bit to much for me right now, and I also feel like I am being a pain. I never like putting anyone out and that's how I feel. Thank you again, i will see how I feel after I finally see the psychiatrist.
Things are a bit to much for me right now, and I also feel like I am being a pain. I never like putting anyone out and that's how I feel. Thank you again, i will see how I feel after I finally see the psychiatrist.
You aren't being a pain at all. And you aren't putting anyone out. We are all here to support each other through the ups and the downs, including the lowest of our low times.
I hope you take care of yourself until you see the psychiatrist and I hope that it goes well.
Big hugs (((Pink Rox)))
I hope you take care of yourself until you see the psychiatrist and I hope that it goes well.
Big hugs (((Pink Rox)))
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Hope you continue to feel better!!
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What an over whelming experience with my my first psychiatrist appointment. I arrived and what is parked in the car park? the brand of car that triggers me, not a great start. In tears, I asked the receptionists if it was a staff members or client, so I could prepare myself by parking somewhere else in future.
Any way I finally got called in after Dr being 1 hour late, I look out the window and his office backed onto the car park, I got him to close the blinds, he started with my childhood, a place I didn't want to go, explained to him mum left when I was 4 and left me with a very violent father, apparently I'm not his "Kid" yet I'm the only one out of us kids that looks like him, I coped a lot of physical and emotional abuse, including threats with a gun, and knife so on and so on.
He ended up in jail for a while. He attempted to hang himself when I was 13 and blamed it on me "It's your fault you aren't my kid" I left when I was 15, fell pregnant at 17. He was last physically abusive to me when I was 21.
I left the state. The Dr said "You have been through a lot" I replied "when you live it and don't know better it's a normal life" which he agreed.
He then wanted to know about the suicide attempt in regards to my husband. I explained it all the search helicopter, volunteers walking the mountain, the police me having to drive his car with vomit, broken glass smell of petrol and so on.
I continually cried it just poured out of me. I get to reception they said $280 please. I stated "What?" I was told first consultation free then Dr would consider bulk billing. That's why I went there because we can't afford it otherwise because I'm not back at work at the moment, so tears again thinking were am I going to get that? Ended up working that out, they said sorry and the initial worker that told me that got it wrong and that happens with another Dr that deals with ADHD.
Feel like I can't win.
Any way I finally got called in after Dr being 1 hour late, I look out the window and his office backed onto the car park, I got him to close the blinds, he started with my childhood, a place I didn't want to go, explained to him mum left when I was 4 and left me with a very violent father, apparently I'm not his "Kid" yet I'm the only one out of us kids that looks like him, I coped a lot of physical and emotional abuse, including threats with a gun, and knife so on and so on.
He ended up in jail for a while. He attempted to hang himself when I was 13 and blamed it on me "It's your fault you aren't my kid" I left when I was 15, fell pregnant at 17. He was last physically abusive to me when I was 21.
I left the state. The Dr said "You have been through a lot" I replied "when you live it and don't know better it's a normal life" which he agreed.
He then wanted to know about the suicide attempt in regards to my husband. I explained it all the search helicopter, volunteers walking the mountain, the police me having to drive his car with vomit, broken glass smell of petrol and so on.
I continually cried it just poured out of me. I get to reception they said $280 please. I stated "What?" I was told first consultation free then Dr would consider bulk billing. That's why I went there because we can't afford it otherwise because I'm not back at work at the moment, so tears again thinking were am I going to get that? Ended up working that out, they said sorry and the initial worker that told me that got it wrong and that happens with another Dr that deals with ADHD.
Feel like I can't win.
That is a very overwhelming first appointment. Especially being so triggered with the car.
I'm really sorry you went through all the childhood abuse, as well as the attempted suicide of your husband.
Am I getting it right then that you didn't have to pay the $280? Sorry my brain is not functioning well at the moment :confused:
Is there a plan for therapy now after seeing the psychiatrist? I really hope you will get the support you need.
I'm really sorry you went through all the childhood abuse, as well as the attempted suicide of your husband.
Am I getting it right then that you didn't have to pay the $280? Sorry my brain is not functioning well at the moment :confused:
Is there a plan for therapy now after seeing the psychiatrist? I really hope you will get the support you need.
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My next door neighbour has always been a blank long story, I told her I tried to kill myself, tonight this is what a message I got tonight, "Only pathetic people try and kill themselves and cant do it properly even the 2nd time you f*cked it up loser if you really wanted would have succeeded
One minute I'm here friend next minute I'm not
She does have mental health issues im sure
One minute I'm here friend next minute I'm not
She does have mental health issues im sure
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