No More Money For Therapy

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I only briefly skimmed the thread, but would like to say this....

Please don't let your fear of triggering others dissuade you from starting a trauma diary. The trauma diary section is by nature the most triggering part of the forum as most people don't get into the nitty gritty of their traumas in other parts of the site. It is up to each individual person to decide what they will or will not read. I write in my own trauma diary, but won't read anyone else's trauma diary because I end up having nightmares about traumas that aren't mine. The trauma diary section is for you and you alone, in that it is for your healing. I know you may be concerned about others, but please don't be. We can each decide what is tolerable for us to read and what is just too much.

 

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@greenleaf, this made me smile. Yes, it's funny how people use "high functioning" in regards to people who have PTSD. From these forums, it appears to me that we're all pretty "high functioning" in terms of acting normal and continuing to live life as normally as we can, and yet we're almost put down for it, if that makes sense. I'm the same way! I can be totally spaced out, gone, and smiling and carrying on "as per normal", and yet people assume I'm fine. We all deserve medals on this website! I actually dissociated today when I saw a guy who looked like, well, yeah, and the girl in the disabilities office was talking to me, and I had no idea I was holding a concrete conversation with her until she looked at me and realized how "gone" I was in my mind haha. She actually looked at me and was like "are you okay? you seem kind of gone" and I was like "what?" Yes, I remember that thread haha, I was commenting on it as well. I definitely think the irony of this is that we might as well be the highest functioning people ever, and yet we definitely do not feel high functioning.

@Solara, it's okay. I didn't really understand the diary section, and still kind of don't, but I'm trying to utilize whatever I have until I have the right resources to continue with therapy. :) thank you though. You're right.