No reply to my last post

[Deleted member 34561]

But I see I've had no less than a hundred and one views. So let me get this straight. Over a hundred people read my personal truth and nobody bothered to reply? Do you not think what I'm saying is real then? Yes I know it reads like something out of an Irving Welsh novel but a million times worse. Well welcome to my wonderful f*cking world peeps. Yes I'm pissed off. I suppose you think I've lied about stuff exaggerated it been over dramatic or some such shit just to gain attention or sympathy or maybe you think I'm psychotic and I'm just making things up to suit my bandy feelings. Well I hate to break it to you folks but this is as real frightening scarey and painful as it gets. I'm absolutely not bullshitting any of you about any of it. I can imagine you thinking that this is worse than any film you've seen or any book you have read. That it can't be that bad. But I'm telling you no I'm PROMISING it really REALLY is that bad and I have absolutely nobody I can share this with that won't get me jailed put in a mental ward hurt or even killed for what I know about all this shit. This is real this is SERIOUS. I thought I was in the right place to discuss these horrors with people who had been through similar if not as extreme as this and that maybe in that case someone ANYONE could relate and maybe give me some sound advice as to how to proceed and how to deal with it or maybe just HEAR me and VALIDATE me and BELIEVE me. And offer some comfort maybe or a shot in the arm so to speak to give me the courage and strength to carry on. Perhaps I was wrong. Oh well looks like I'll just have to continue holding this crushing burden on my own then. Let's face it I've been doing that already for 48 f*cking years and nobody ever supported me with this in a REAL way all that time so why should I hope or expect it would be any different now? I'm just the same as all of you I have C-PTSD too you know. And I have it for a bloody good reason. Nearly half a century of abuse from more people than I can even count. I feel abused again now because nobody here is listening to me or even acknowledging me. Or at least it seems that way. Perhaps you're all shocked to the core that such evil sickness and depravity even exists in the world despite your own experiences. Or that I should be singled out or my kids as well for such a large dose of it. Why do I even feel the need to understand any of you when it seems to me I'm not getting the same understanding in return from any of you? I poured my very heart and soul into my post Depression... Malignant Sadness yesterday but who of any of you took notice enough of it to be bothered to even reply? I feel like I just wasted my time and emotions all over again on the wrong people and I was hoping for better. Are my expectations unrealistic? Am I too needy desperate insecure? Are these the wants and needs of a lost child crying in the night into the wind? Or those of a hurting scared adult with nobody in her corner whatsoever? You bloody well tell me because I'm not sure I know any more. I'm so upset. It seems wherever I go with the truth about my life I get turned away because that truth is so bloody horrible I'm horrible as a person just by association. Like it's my own fault these terrible things befell me and my poor kids. Well I know that's bloody crap but do you lot know it's crap too? Or are you lot cowardly and so wrapped up in your own stuff you don't believe anyone else could ever be worse off than you? Well you have just met someone who is. I'm leaving it there and I will wait to see if anyone on here is kind enough or compassionate enough or wise enough or brave enough or even honest enough to bloody well prove me wrong. I like being proved wrong because it adjusts my map of reality in my head to realistic proportions. I don't want to live in fear or paranoia anymore you see. But if none of you can be my rock or light house or port in a storm then I'll just go back to doing what I've always done. Carry this on my Jack Jones. And I won't hate any of you for it. We all have our own burdens to carry and our own limitations and our own doubts. I find though that when people doubt my truth it's because they are doubting their own truth. Why should that be MY problem? Just saying. My last word is this. Cooperation not competition. That is the only way human beings are going to survive thrive and heal. Which side are you on?

 

[anthony]

So let me get this straight. Over a hundred people read my personal truth and nobody bothered to reply?

How Do I Get Responses To My Threads?

You have posted a near unreadable blob of text that makes it difficult for most to read, let alone those with attention issues due to trauma. See link I posted to help you get responses.

 

[Mytime]

I'm sorry your not feeling supported. I haven't read your post yet, but I will.

 

[Esterio]

Hi there crazydiamond47
I am sorry that so ,any read your post and did not respond. I am not sure why you did not get a response from your post. I have had the same thing happen to me and don't know why I think it was because I told to much. I find that people talk to me and want to know me. so I start to tell them who I am and where I have been and what happened and some stop talking to me. I don't really know why but I got the impression that I said to much. One person even sent me a pm saying and this it my cold shoulder. So I can understand your feelings. I am going to go and find your post and read and I will respond to you. I believe if you wrote it that it deserves a response. Try not to let it negatively effect you just try to move in a forward direction.
Peace be safe

 

[whiteraven]

Hi. I didn't see your first post because I haven't been on in awhile. Or maybe I did and I don't remember. I'm dissociative in addition to having C-PTSD and I forget a lot of things I do. I did read this one and while I'm sorry you didn't get any responses to your first one, you have provided at least some of the answers already yourself as to why that might have happened.

See, sometimes really heavy stuff is too much for some. If it's triggering, it doesn't get completely read. If it doesn't get completely read, it likely won't be responded to. Or sometimes, a post might be off-putting. Like, say...this one. I get that you're really angry and that's ok. But you're a little aggressive and maybe a wee bit hostile (I don't know a soul here who is "cowardly") toward folks who are also hurting and likely didn't mean you any personal harm. Not getting responses is the nature of forums like this. (Been there, many, many times. Don't like it, but that's just the way it is.) Heck, on another forum I frequent, I just got done replying to myself twice in the suicidal section because nobody has. That's messed up.

So anyway. I am sorry to hear that you have been suffering so much and you've not had anyone to talk to about all that you've been through. I think lots of people here will probably be able to relate to that; I know I can. It sounds like you have not had any relief at all. I do hope that you will stick around and continue to share with others here so we can get to know you better.

 

[EveHarrington]

You ask no real direct questions.

It's impossible to know what kind of feedback you are looking for.

It reads more like a diary entry than a post reaching out for responses.

People tend to not reply unless you ask something directly.

There is no way to know what you are looking for.

Plus it's really long.

 

[Changing4Best]

Over 3,000 people have read my Trauma Diary and maybe a dozen of them have replied to it. Maybe. That is the way it goes sometimes. I think a lot of folks do read, but sometimes, especially when it is heavy and upsetting, no one knows what to say.

I did not see your post. I did not have time to read all of this post above either. I'm on my way out, but I did want to say that no matter what has happened to you, I do care. Hang in there....

 

[Lionheart]

Due to having a traumatized brain, I could not read your post. I need you to break things down into two or three sentences at a time and make small paragraphs so that I can read it, or I will unfortunately, have to skip your post.

Also, I am just now seeing that you posted. Once it is edited, I would be happy to post a response.

 

[Deleted member 41765]

I just read and responded to your thread. I'm sorry you've experienced the forum silence. I know it can be difficult to cope with as it's happened to me on occasion as well. I'm also sorry that some of the responses here have lacked compassion; you didn't deserve that! I do agree with what @whiteraven has written and hope you are able to consider it. Holding out a cyber hand of support...

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Try breaking your posts in paragraphs with breaks. I used to not do that due to typing on a phone, on breaks ar work and in a hurry but it truey helps the reader understand what you are saying.

Also, if it is not a direct question it likely won't get replied to by many. I have trouble with this many times so if i dont have a direct question then i just post it in my diary (and do get replies in there).

The link Anthony posted is great and helped me for sure!

 

[Deleted member 34328]

I don't know if anyone is still responding or reading this (or you @crazydiamond47 ) I saw this on the regular "daily dose yesterday" so I'm pretty late responding.

If you are still following it, speaking only for myself, I hear what you're saying and would like to respond to this thread - I haven't seen your original one.

I really do hear you, but... may I remind you that there are many (myself included) that are in a fragile state of mind, that even an attempt at reading your post... which would be included in the views... would set me back quite a bit.

I would normally respond or even send you a personal message of support, but I can't right now. It's not safe for me and I have to look out for myself first.

It's a large forum. I've felt overlooked at times as well. I know how it feels. I post a thread that's really important to me but doesn't really generate any support. It is hard. You feel alone in your world. You aren't even though it definitely feels that way.

I am truly sorry you're hurting so badly and feeling more rejected and abandoned than you already were, however I gather from reading these responses that hopefully you are interacting with some now. A lot of support is there and I hope you feel safer now.

I still can't go to your original thread and thankful that I didn't. The content would have set me back. Please understand that I'm not alone in my situation.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

You got many replies to your thread and you haven't posted back to it. You need to sort of interact to get the replies you are looking for.

Or are you lot cowardly and so wrapped up in your own stuff you don't believe anyone else could ever be worse off than you?

I wanted to reply to this. My past sounds like a horror movie. I grew up in a cult with real religious beliefs, a real bible, real followers, real rituals, real animal sacrifice, at least one real murder, real human trafficking me, really being sold, really being rented, real punishments, real beastiality, really be chained up, really locked in a closet for days, real drownings and water boarding, real cutting of my body and really having sex in my blood...and more.

But I am well aware that so many had it worse then me. It took me YEARS to even call it all abuse. It was right and justified and good and holy for so long in my head and it took YEARS in therapy, being "diagnosed" with Stolkholm at the time, to come to terms with the fact it was abuse and torture. In my head everyone had it worse then I did. You may want to take your own advice on that one. There is always someone that has had it worse off. I mean look at ISIS and look at the human trafficking in general and even other cults. There is ALWAYS someone that has it worse. Always.