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My heart is pounding because I am afraid to talk about everything. But I just have to in order to get on with my life. After searching on the internet for help, I came across this forum. I have read many of the posts, and it seems to me that I am on the right forum?
In 2011 me and my husband were sequestrated and lost our home and all our savings, which was very traumatic. We both are within our fifties. A few months after that, in August last year, I was demoted in an unfair manner in the managerial job I have been doing for 20 years, which was also my passion. I had no chance to defend myself and was horribly shocked. My whole world came tumbling down. According to the therapist I had a nervous breakdown 3 weeks after that. I didn't even know what a nervous breakdown is, and can't remember exactly what happened.
Needless to say I now don't have any self-confidence. I start shaking even when I am with friends, which is very embarrassing. I can't even eat with people or hold a cup without shaking. I am shaking as I am typing here. My handwriting has deteriorated terribly. Sometimes I can't even write, especially when people are looking at me. I avoid being with people or have any social contact, especially at work.
Then I also started stuttering. I forget words and hardly can express myself. Sometimes when talking I forget what I was saying or about to say. I also can not remember many things that have happened in the past. I have lost every piece of self-confidence I had.
I wake up every night scared and shaking, and drenched with sweat. I also started losing weight.
And lately I am very bad-tempered, and really make it difficult for people to be around me.
Because of all these symptoms I went to the doctor for help. Any blood test that could be done, was done, but it showed that I am healthy.
I am being successfully treated for high blood pressure and severe depression for years. I have never previously experienced the symptoms I have described above.
I feel as if my life has ended forever. I will appreciate any help I can get, because I am desperate to try and live a normal life again.
In 2011 me and my husband were sequestrated and lost our home and all our savings, which was very traumatic. We both are within our fifties. A few months after that, in August last year, I was demoted in an unfair manner in the managerial job I have been doing for 20 years, which was also my passion. I had no chance to defend myself and was horribly shocked. My whole world came tumbling down. According to the therapist I had a nervous breakdown 3 weeks after that. I didn't even know what a nervous breakdown is, and can't remember exactly what happened.
Needless to say I now don't have any self-confidence. I start shaking even when I am with friends, which is very embarrassing. I can't even eat with people or hold a cup without shaking. I am shaking as I am typing here. My handwriting has deteriorated terribly. Sometimes I can't even write, especially when people are looking at me. I avoid being with people or have any social contact, especially at work.
Then I also started stuttering. I forget words and hardly can express myself. Sometimes when talking I forget what I was saying or about to say. I also can not remember many things that have happened in the past. I have lost every piece of self-confidence I had.
I wake up every night scared and shaking, and drenched with sweat. I also started losing weight.
And lately I am very bad-tempered, and really make it difficult for people to be around me.
Because of all these symptoms I went to the doctor for help. Any blood test that could be done, was done, but it showed that I am healthy.
I am being successfully treated for high blood pressure and severe depression for years. I have never previously experienced the symptoms I have described above.
I feel as if my life has ended forever. I will appreciate any help I can get, because I am desperate to try and live a normal life again.
