Not Very Proud Of Myself....

[kimba]

I just snapped at one of the few friends I have :notworthy:. I knew the anxiety was going to get me this week! I tried really hard to relax and actually danced my butt off in my backyard trying to get rid of it- but it didn't work. Tomorrow I finally see my doctor to get the prescription for Zoloft. Not soon enough in my opinion. My friend actually apologised to me and I was the one who snapped at her. Grrrrrr...

My friend has been great even though I haven't told her everything (like the suicidal ideation episode a few weeks ago). I don't want her to worry about me as she has plenty on her own plate right now. I'm sure that is part of it- secrets get us one way or another and it is in the back of my mind that she doesn't know it all and I'm afraid she wouldn't be my friend if she did. Oh well, tomorrow is another hopefully better day.

 

[mamachick]

Self forgiveness and compassion is needed at times such as this-in my opinion. You know your whole situation better than anyone else and if you are not ready to share details-that is your option. Anxiety can be horrible and remember you do not chose it and are trying to manage. Progress not perfection. Tomorrow is a better day. Stay hopeful and treat yourself with the same compassion that you do your friend:-)

 

[kimba]

Thanks brat17. I went to the doctor today and finally got a prescription for an anti-anxiety medication. I haven't picked it up yet and I can't remember which one right now. I think it's Celexa.

I took Zoloft previously but he wanted to try something else first because the anxiety had my BP up to 164/100 (normal high for doc. office is 150/80 and I was pacing when he came in the room. He was great about it and hopefully it helps. It should help with the depression and sleep/nightmare issues as well.

 

[AliveInside]

Forgive yourself Kimba, you're human after all I'm sure you can do something extra nice for your friend to make it up to them.