Oh gag me

[Deleted member 541]

@Ragdoll Circus Let’s hope that this year will be different and that you won’t be an inpatient....

 

[MyWillow]

@bento thank you for your kind words. They are deeply felt. To be in the midst of a high performance job and at the same time coming to terms with structural dissociation, amnesia, dissociative flashbacks and, of all things, trauma (WTAF???) has been a shock to say the very least. Need that denial to last at least through the holidays lol

 

[Cyberluddite]

What pisses me off is that it goes from Halloween to Christmas likethat. Remembrance Day is ignored....

Two years ago, Walmart had already set up their Valentine's Day candy aisle three weeks before Christmas.

I hear ya. :(

 

[Deleted member 41765]

I'm late to this thread and thank you @She Cat!!!

I've long hated Christmas and this year will mark a new trauma anniversary (because, you know, I needed another one), the day my oldest and dearest friend was murdered. Ho ho ho.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

his year will mark a new trauma anniversary (because, you know, I needed another one), the day my oldest and dearest friend was murdered. Ho ho ho.

I am so sorry to hear about this happening to your friend, :hug::hug:

 

[Deleted member 41765]

Thank you @Rain !! :hug:

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Thank you

You are welcome, I hope that your healing goes well although I realize that you will never really get over this.

 

[Tornadic Thoughts]

Ouch...that's so painful, @ShikibuZ . Heart hugs to everyone who suffers so deeply this time of year. It's an energy force that can suck you under real quick, then crush you while you're down, just like a damn black friday sale. I've been wanting to figure out how to release its power over me for a long while now.It may sound weird as hell, but thank you for mentioning "ho, ho, ho" in your post, as it prompted an idea that might finally help make it a bit more bearable when I venture out. I sincerely thank you.

I just had a light bulb moment and have now decided that with each overwhelming festive wish/invitation/marketing attempt/etc. that I encounter throughout my days, I'm gonna gift someone a hoop, hoop, hoop (of the hula variety) to actively counteract the shitty vibes I typically feel from the whole ho, ho, ho scene. If it starts to be too many to manage and keep up with, I'll randomly gift pocket rocks or some of my magnetic awareness magnets instead. Bring it on you little festive f*ckers. lol Help me fuel my passion to spread some more damn joy and awareness.

I'll hoop it up in some of the damnedest places and publicly display my own flavors of foolishness as I leave a trail of hoops and other delights along the way. lol Why the hell not? Not going to let the bs and old baggage clog my flow for such a huge chunk of yet another year, dammit, at least not to the extent it has in the last couple after my significant lifestyle changes. Staying miserable like clockwork each year only works to keep digging a much deeper groove in the same ditch....one that I've literally been dying to get out of. Time for some new scenery. I'll keep celebrating my way, as I do every other day, where not even the baked goods are sugar coated. Hahahahaha!!!

 

[Deleted member 541]

@ShikibuZ This yr will be even harder for you with the loss of your friend. I’m sorry. There are no words that can take away your grief and pain, and saying I’m sorry just seems so hollow.

Take care of yourself that day and make sure you drop in often to let us know how you’re doing.......


Hugs

 

[Deleted member 541]

@Tornadic Thoughts PLEASE!!!! Just do this one thing for me..... I want pictures or videos of you doing the hoop thing!!!! I need a good laugh as does everyone else.... no face shots if that bothers you, but maybe from the neck down.... LOL

 

[Deleted member 41765]

@Tornadic Thoughts I love this idea!!!!
@She Cat Thank you and I'm definitely going to be a fixture here in the weeks to come.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Is it just me or does it seem that with the holidays getting closer and closer the depression and PTSD mind seems a little heavier as time passes.

I just have two thoughts in mind I am definately going to celebrate January first with massive relief and I am going to decorate come hell or high water and I am damn well going to decorate my little tree. But to be honest I am looking more forward to the new years day party I am throwing for me.:arghh;:banghead::D