sunshine_annie
New Here
Hi, where to start...call me Anne, or Annie. Last week I spent 6 days in a psychiatric hospital and found out I have PTSD. I was very surprised, though I knew the panic attacks I've had for years sounded nothing like how others described theirs, or how the Internet describes it, I just figured my anxiety was very severe. Well, it is, but it has its own name. It's good I guess.
I am a survivor of being sexually abused several times throughout my childhood and once as a teenager by my trusted stepfather. I recently had a psychotic break (hence the hospital.) I'm 26, happily marries with a great support system, and though sometimes suicidal ideation returns, I'm doing better. I do want to live, I just want to be happy, and that's what I can't figure out.
Besides from the PTSD I have major depression, addicted to self harm (been doing it for 20 yrs) oh and in the process of finding out if I have disassociative identity disorder. I just found out two weeks ago that I am also a victim of incest, but didnt know until he confessed to me, because I disassociated during the abuse.
I guess that's me in a nut shell. I also suffer from physical ailments which adds to my daily stress...fibromyalgia, interstitial cystitis, pelvic floor dysfunction, vestibulodynia, vaginismus. My life is pain, in every way. Yay.
I'm seeing a therapy but have joined a couple forums like this...hoping to learn from others and maybe help someone else too someday. Thanks for reading :)
Anne
I am a survivor of being sexually abused several times throughout my childhood and once as a teenager by my trusted stepfather. I recently had a psychotic break (hence the hospital.) I'm 26, happily marries with a great support system, and though sometimes suicidal ideation returns, I'm doing better. I do want to live, I just want to be happy, and that's what I can't figure out.
Besides from the PTSD I have major depression, addicted to self harm (been doing it for 20 yrs) oh and in the process of finding out if I have disassociative identity disorder. I just found out two weeks ago that I am also a victim of incest, but didnt know until he confessed to me, because I disassociated during the abuse.
I guess that's me in a nut shell. I also suffer from physical ailments which adds to my daily stress...fibromyalgia, interstitial cystitis, pelvic floor dysfunction, vestibulodynia, vaginismus. My life is pain, in every way. Yay.
I'm seeing a therapy but have joined a couple forums like this...hoping to learn from others and maybe help someone else too someday. Thanks for reading :)
Anne
