Pictures - did anyone take pictures of you during abuse?

[Snowflake]

This thread has been triggery (is that a word?) for me. I am so sorry that you all have suffered be...

I’m sorry this was triggering

 

[ms spock]

I was always being abused. So I don't think this is what you are looking for, but yes photos at family things, and at school, the abuse of the Catholic clergy and etc was never ending, and yes they took photos but not of actual sexual abuse. But I grew up being abused. So yes but no if I am answering what I think that you are asking.

 

[Swift]

Don't apologize for triggering, we all know that the forums are triggering, it's okay. :)

Yep. Pics and video.
I was a kid though, and I know they're online somewhere but I can't bring myself to go looking for them. (I can search without pictures turned on so I'm not breaking the law about it.)
It just bothers me that they're still out there. I try to tell myself it's better that people are looking at old pictures of me rather than creating new ones with some other poor sod.

I hate having my picture taken, too, so much so that I became a photographer. Fantastic way of never being in any pictures. I also always ask for permission before I shoot.

 

[solar]

My mother would record me being abused by my father. Saying things like "everyone is going to see how much of a bad child you are".

(meant to write more in my post. I guess we can't edit posts?) Being recorded and having my photo taken without my consent is a HUGE trigger for me and is one of the reasons they thought I was schizophrenic when I first developed actual symptoms of PTSD when I was 19. I was afraid of cameras and I didn't really understand why I had this extreme paranoia about them but my last therapist explained it was from my past trauma, not psychosis.

 

[Ronin]

At times.

More snickering about the times I made them destroy them, though. The whole Never happened & Never took pictures of you bullshitting game was fun, even more when I had the exacts of who the copies went to.

Im still skittish as f*ck about pictures. And dislike taking pics of other people, unless they are assholes, those do not count as people in my book usually.

 

[Snowflake]

My mother would record me being abused by my father. Saying things like "everyone is going to see how muc...

Same

 

[hithere]

I'm late to this thread, but it's weird I saw this because I was waking up from sleep today I started wondering if the films of the abuse are posted online... then other memories of stuff involving photos, and I started thinking about that situation and wondering are those photos online now somewhere too? oh well. the answer is yes. it is part of my ptsd in a very big way and I'm feeling so betrayed and abanonded by my T now because my T is so nonchalant about it, so cool and uncaring and no emotion to it at all, and that just makes me sad as f*ck and feel worthless

 

[Snowflake]

I'm late to this thread, but it's weird I saw this because I was waking up from sleep today I started w...

I can’t believe your T is like this? I’m so sorry.
Yes it bothers me too ugh. I doubt mine are online.

 

[CopperDeer]

Yes and some ended up online. It's a weird experience to think about - almost like watching a movie than remembering something that happened to me.

 

[Sweetleaf]

I'm feeling so betrayed and abanonded by my T now because my T is so nonchalant about it, so cool and uncaring and no emotion to it at all, and that just makes me sad as f*ck and feel worthless

My old t was like that in a lot of ways. I'm sorry you have to deal with a t who doesn't understand your struggle well enough :(

Yes and some ended up online. It's a weird experience to think about - almost like watching a movie than remembering something that happened to me.

I so relate to this, with so many horrible memories.

 

[Deleted member 8714]

My father took pictures of me. Luckily back then there wasn't any internet or else I'm certain he would've uploaded them all, and so would the other pedophiles he hung out with who were doctors, dentists, and attorneys.

I also had a T video tape me while I playacted. This was more invasive than my father taking photographs of me...I think because I don't know where that video is. :eek::wtf::arghh;

 

[Snowflake]

I’m sorry