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Please pray for those in Central Florida, especially those in Orlando, who suffered as a result of the act of terrorism in Orlando last evening/this morning. My heart is breaking. Thank you. VB
 
Please keep me in prayer at 2PM today (Monday) Eastern Daylight Savings Time because I am being interviewed by my pastor about my childhood sexual abuse as part of my application to work with children in our church. I am also having a background check and so on. I have written a much more detailed description about all this in the SEXUAL ASSAULT section of the Forum, for anyone who wants to know more about this. And, yes, it seems that this is legal, for a church to ask about such things of any applicant. My pastor did say that the interview was about where to best place me to work during our upcoming Vacation Bible School event.
 
No details were spoken about, concerning my childhood sexual abuse. She was pleased that I have written a Trauma Diary here and that I have been in therapy for over 25 years. She was pleased that I got a lot of relief by writing it and that therapy has helped me. She wants to pray about my being involved with VBS, as she thinks it may be too overwhelming for me. I never had any children and other than babysitting as a teenager, I have no experience with kids. She is concerned about this is all. We prayed. She will pray more. I have no answers as yet.... (I wrote more about the meeting in my post down in the SEXUAL ASSAULT section).
 
My safe haven of the Senior Center has seemingly become unsafe for me because a man has started to attend who a year ago sexually harassed me in the grocery store by sidling up to me and pressing his pelvis into mine! I at that time ducked and grabbed a grocery cart and left him in the dust. He was also kicked out of the building in which I live for loud drunken parties. He has also done similar things to other women, I later found out. So he's a pervert, as far as I am concerned. Anyway, I warned my closest friends there about him and also the director. Everyone there is keeping an eye on him for me, but I still feel as if my safe space have been invaded. He also is bringing a friend with him, that I have been told is another character just like him. Please keep me in your prayers!
 
I joined Overeaters Anonymous (OA) and have asked someone to be my Sponsor. I pray she agrees, because she is Christian, and it means a lot to me to have a Christian Sponsor. I got to at least one of their online meetings per day and am planning to do the 12 steps. I only weigh 157, and am 5 foot 7 inches, but according to my Dr. I run the risk of getting Diabetes and I should weigh around maybe 140-145 or so. I have had a weight problem in the past due to the medicines I take, so I need to watch this, as I used to weigh 195! Me weight is creeping up again, which is not good. I was down to 140 maybe 6 months ago! I hate this. One of my meds that causes weight gain was upped, so that is probably the cause. None the less, I need that med in order to be able to sleep well, and if I don't take it, I sleep NONE. I forgot to take my meds one night and I did not sleep at all. I know this one is the one that helps me to sleep, as well as one other one, and I think there was one other time I did not have any of this medicine and I could not sleep at all either. So I know I need it. No way around this, but to join OA and do the 12 steps AGAIN. I have already done them one time for overeating. I know they work. I went from 195 down to 138 that time that I did them. I am lucky I found OA online, as I have no car and cannot make it to the closest meeting, which is 12 miles from here. One lady actually suggested I walk to the meeting! Like I am in my mid-60s. Sure... I can do that! No problem... not!!!
 
Goodness, I looked for this thread so hard, I thought I'd imagined it. ;0 It's been a while since I've been actively out here so there you go. First, my thoughts and prayers are with all of us who are dealing with the many aspects of this wretched disorder and state of being. Second, as I wipe away the tears, I would ask for prayers for me to be able to help myself. It just doesn't seem to be working lately. I've tried different things to no avail. Addiction is ruling the roost and I am sinking deeper toward solitary homelessness. On the bright side, my inner strand is still reaching out, trying to help myself as I can, looking for jobs and applying when I feel worthy, and still believing in a true and faithful God. He is all I really feel that I have right now as I am mostly isolated.

I know that I am not alone in my journey or in my needs, so maybe this is just not just a prayer for me, but for all of us who are feeling alone, lonely, lost, broken, addicted, and at the end of the road. It's a lot to ask, but please, for those of us at this point, please pray to your god/goddess/the universe, etc.... for our deliverance, safety, and healing. Humbly - VB.
 

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