Other Psychotic break

[sonicwhite]

I’m on gabapentin. So it works on the calcium channels in the GABA B receptors.

Risperdal was so good for my psychosis. I have E OCD too. The depersonalization and realization of thinking your standing before God and about to be judge o me personally is the worst fear you could have.

In my Facebook I have to not look at all my friend things about hell. It’s so spiking.

I truly don’t want a benzo. I’m never t so sure how I’ll heal. I hope I do. But OCD is beyond PTSD in the sense that you get so caught up in whatever your obsession is which mine is my faith that you just can’t function.

I am always battling the thoughts of what is Jesus going to say when I see Him.


Good and faithful servant?

Depart from me I never knew you.

Oh that just made me spike. Whew I wished all of this was over. I don’t want to die but I wouldn’t mind if it happen.

No more suffering.

Idk if I’ll ever be a Pastor. I desire it more then anything and I know it’s by faith that someone is saved and not works. I just feel like I have a duty on this earth and I’m falling short. I wanted to be the next Billy Graham. Now talk about falling short. Paul told us to think about yourself soberly. So my dreams probably won’t happen.

 

[ILoveLife]

I am always battling the thoughts of what is Jesus going to say when I see Him

I believe Christianity is about forgiveness and love. I think you'll be fine ;)


Thats the depression talking, you very much want to live. I know because I've been there and understand that love for god and Jesus comes from love for life and reality. Personally, I've seen my light elsewhere but it was important for me to go through the path of religion.
If you feel it such a big part of you, it's because it already is.

 

[EveHarrington]

This is just going in circles.

I’m not sure why you are posting.

You aren’t taking anyone’s advice.

And really nobody here can help you other than say call your doc!

Do you realize that if you feel yourself slipping into psychosis your doc can temporarily increase your antipsychotic in order to stave it off?

I have no idea why you don’t want to avoid full blown psychosis.

Each and every psychotic break can damage the brain and make future psychosis more possible.

Meaning......say goodbye to your dreams of being a pastor.

Call your doctor.

 

[Nessa7]

The main aspect about your future that you need to be worried about is surviving this period of psychosis. It is unlikely that you will be able to be treated as an outpatient. The sooner you reach out for help the more likely it is that you will have options for treatment other than the hospital.