Jefferson08
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Hello everyone 
I am Jefferson. I am diagnosed with PTSD. I have experienced a trauma last year in November 2023 by a family member and his son. They damaged my car and attacked me physically, because I didnt greet this deranged family member. It was that crazy.
From that day on, my days have been filled with flashbacks, what ifs, frustration, anger, but also fear with illogical scenarios. Sometimes I wake up getting reminded of the state of my car, sometimes I get reminded of his face. It fills me up with powerlessness and hopelessness, which then turns into frustration and sometimes fear.
Although the last few weeks have been better, the mere reminder that this person lives nearby and that I can face him, makes me "cautious". I do not respect bullies. If someone does not respect me, I shall not respect him. But at the same time, I am worried for my well being and the well being of others. This individual resents my family. I am worried that he might attack them one day. I am worried, because I have heard that he recently got into a physical fight with someone else and used his other son as a weapon to attack that person, just like he did to attack me.
So while my PTSD is based on that traumatic event from last year, it is not very unlikely that it might happen again.
I am a proud person. Sometimes stupidly proud, because I ignore the dire help I require because I value my pride more. I have now realized that that is a bad way to deal with serious problems, and am seeking help. Thats why I am glad to have found this forum. I am also seeing a therapist to discuss the PTSD. Hope to gain the much needed knowledge and assist others. Cheers.
I am Jefferson. I am diagnosed with PTSD. I have experienced a trauma last year in November 2023 by a family member and his son. They damaged my car and attacked me physically, because I didnt greet this deranged family member. It was that crazy.
From that day on, my days have been filled with flashbacks, what ifs, frustration, anger, but also fear with illogical scenarios. Sometimes I wake up getting reminded of the state of my car, sometimes I get reminded of his face. It fills me up with powerlessness and hopelessness, which then turns into frustration and sometimes fear.
Although the last few weeks have been better, the mere reminder that this person lives nearby and that I can face him, makes me "cautious". I do not respect bullies. If someone does not respect me, I shall not respect him. But at the same time, I am worried for my well being and the well being of others. This individual resents my family. I am worried that he might attack them one day. I am worried, because I have heard that he recently got into a physical fight with someone else and used his other son as a weapon to attack that person, just like he did to attack me.
So while my PTSD is based on that traumatic event from last year, it is not very unlikely that it might happen again.
I am a proud person. Sometimes stupidly proud, because I ignore the dire help I require because I value my pride more. I have now realized that that is a bad way to deal with serious problems, and am seeking help. Thats why I am glad to have found this forum. I am also seeing a therapist to discuss the PTSD. Hope to gain the much needed knowledge and assist others. Cheers.
