Ptsd to the 3rd power

[Esterio]

Hi there AlexandriaSupertramp
I'm sure sorry for everything you are having to go through. I wish you all the strength and support you need to get through this. You have found a good place to go for support when you have no family supports there are lots of angles here. That has been my experience here. I am hoping for a fast and positive recovery after your chemo treatments.
Best of Luck, Get Well Soon
Peace be safe :hug: if you can accept them
I can't take hugs for real, I like these ones online

 

[Deleted member 40217]

Hi there AlexandriaSupertramp
I'm sure sorry for everything you are having to go through. I wish you...

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Wishing you all the very best & sending good wishes across the pond.

:)

Thank you everyone! I am still fighting the fight but getting tired very quickly. I just want my own bed @ this point. hugs to all

 

[Deleted member 37474]

Hi! Just saw this on my Saturday update. I hope that you are having a good day and fighting strong. My thyroid is checked every year to keep watch on nodules. So, some day, I may be looking to you for advice. I wish you the best today!

 

[Deleted member 40217]

Thank you so much @TexCat :shy: Your picture brought a happy tear to my eye. I love water, whether it be a lake, stream, pond, river.......etc. Bodies of water help me think and process so I'm going to use your picture as my new screen saver if you don't mind:photogenic:.
Ahhhh, that yearly nodule check, I know it helps but after 25 yrs it gets irritating I am open to any questions you might ever have:) Have a great day

 

[Fayne Jane]

You sound like a very brave, courage person with many stressors. I also have PTSD and I am in therapy and this site has helped me a great deal. Prayers and hugs your way, stay in touch.

 

[Deleted member 40217]

I have to vent guys....... it's lonely in here and I'm starting to lose it. My body wants to rest but my mind wants to play. Flashbacks of abusers are rampant especially the ones with my mom.

I am probably at one of the lowest points in my life right now and I still want to prove how strong I am to her so badly, but it still wouldn't have made her love me. It's so hard for me to forgive, but if I want to heal........I have too. I can no longer hate her, I will never forget but I have to see it in a positive......If it wasn't for the abuse I would not be the warrior I am today. So wherever you are MoM, Happy Mothers Day:sorry:​

 

[Deleted member 40217]

You sound like a very brave, courage person with many stressors. I also have PTSD and I am in thera...

Thank you

 

[ladee]

Forgiveness comes with healing AST, and it's not like you have had an easy go or a straight shot at that for quite some time... It's hard to stay focused on what you need when you body is fighting with chemo. And I didn't know how long it was going to take for you to share other things going on...
I am so sorry, so very sorry, that your mom hurt you so bad that she never saw you are good enough...and that has to be added to your healing list.... but you can only do what you can do with what little reserve you have right now....
Seems Mothers Day is a bitch for a lot of us.. myself included. I have been worse this month than I have been in a long time. Does it help you at all for so many of US to see how brave and strong you are... it's not the same I know.. no where close... but there is a lot of healing power in numbers and many working on the same thing... you don't have to do it today, it's a process, which I know you are sick of knowing...

And you are a warrior... but I have a feeling you would have been anyway. And I am a gazillion times proud of you that you turned what could have destroyed you, into the woman you are. Sorry she doesn't get to know the woman we know, and that I personally cherish.

So tomorrow, I declare Sunday as "AlexandriaSuperTramp' day... wish I could send you flowers and all the other ways we honor the special women in our life.. you are that.... very special...

Forgiveness comes... it will happen.

Sending you lots of gentle hugs for your tired soul and body.

 

[Deleted member 37474]

Thank you so much @TexCat :shy: Your picture brought a happy tear to m...

I am glad that the file was able to be on there so that you could have that photo. I tend to take a lot of photos of nature ever since my PTSD hit.

 

[Lola Nocheprieta]

Beautiful picture, TexCat! Thanks for sharing. Water healer

 

[Deleted member 40217]

Thank you @ladee. I'm sorry your having a hard time as well. It is indeed a difficult time for many of us on here and this forum has been a blessing in disguise. I never thought I would find a place where i can ask questions and express myself without the ridicule of society's rules of normalcy.
I love and respect each and every warrior on here for I know the struggle first hand. I am inching my way towards opening up more and sticking to the processing steps so I don't get stuck. You all continue to be my inspiration and motivation. A big group hug if you accept. Can't wait to go home on Monday :)

 

[Deleted member 40217]

Finally home..... but mentally and physiolocigally exhausted