Pulled From Anger Management Group This Evening

[thomas.robinson.54966]

I get tired of the acts just out with the crap what does it matter there should be no thin skis at group

 

[Raven]

I get tired of the acts just out with the crap what does it matter there should be no thin skis at group

I haven't been to a lot of groups, but I've been to a few. There's a lot of beating around the bush that goes on. While I understand perfectly why people beat around the bush at these PTSD groups, I'm trying not to do that anymore. I wasn't expecting to make a lot of progress in two sessions, but it was enough for me to know that I wouldn't glean much help from said group.

 

[thomas.robinson.54966]

Thanks raven I don't think I will return I am getting civilian help tired of the pushing meds and BS therapy

 

[Jimmy1]

Yeah. That's why it's an act. I just kept my mouth shut through both sessions, rather than join in with their act. We all put on acts. Just my approach happens to be a lot different than theirs.

I used to go around pretending I did not have PTSD. You should try it. We get all complacent with ourselves and tend to blame everything on PTSD. Try a day of pretending not to have it. It's harder than you think. There is no way I could handle more than a day, most times I only make it till lunch. Something always ticks me off.

 

[thomas.robinson.54966]

I think I have drank enough to kill the pain and sleep for work tomorrow. This is how it's suppose to be I guess

 

[thomas.robinson.54966]

The VA should issue free alcohol coupons and punching bags

 

[Raven]

I used to go around pretending I did not have PTSD. You should try it. We get all complacent with ourselves and tend to blame everything on PTSD. Try a day of pretending not to have it. It's harder than you think. There is no way I could handle more than a day, most times I only make it till lunch. Something always ticks me off.

That's how I try to operate most of the time. I compartmentalize; I stuff the beast down into a tiny box somewhere inside myself. Then he'll come bursting out an hour later, a day later, a week later, a month later, whatever. It's not working the way I want it to, and I have some bizarre triggers--many of which I have not fully identified. For the first time, I feel like I want to face the music, I just don't know how.

 

[Grizzly]

I used to go around pretending I did not have PTSD. You should try it. We get all complacent with ourselves and tend to blame everything on PTSD. Try a day of pretending not to have it. It's harder than you think. There is no way I could handle more than a day, most times I only make it till lunch. Something always ticks me off.

I hear what you're saying Jimmy. But I've gone through the years thinking I was just f*cked up mentally. Maybe dropped on my head as a kid too many times. Or mom smoked pot while she was pregnant. I blamed all my behavior on that. Sure I had war triggers but never correlated it. It was just my "normal". Then the VA drops this PTSD bomb on me. In a way it was a relief. But really now in my head I'm labeling all my f*cked up actions as PTSD and in a way I'm excusing myself for it. I guess in a way I wished I could go back to the way I was in not knowing before my DX.

 

[Raven]

The VA should issue free alcohol coupons and punching bags

There aren't many ways the VA could f*ck up even more, but that would be one.

Drink yourself silly for as long as you need to. The only thing that works is to stop when you feel the need to stop for whatever reason.

 

[thomas.robinson.54966]

Me too I hate the triggers Friday explanatory the booms and bangs but some no idea where they come from.

 

[thomas.robinson.54966]

Will do it kills the pain of a broken heart

 

[Raven]

Drinking by yourself won't get her back. Begging might.