Rip Van Wrinkle-like Holiday Wish

[Seasounds]

Of course i will get through the next 6 weeks, and to speak the truth, I always wish I could go to sleep about this time of year, and wake up on New Years Day, in order to miss all the holiday and family-oriented festivities.

I imagine that I am not alone. Anyone else feel the same way?

 

[Sandstone]

Yes, yes and yes. It hurts so much more because I used to love it all - four Christmas trees, two dining tables to fit everyone in.

I still like the decorations, but I hope no-one will come to see them. I'd like a Silent Night, followed by a silent day and repeat. I'm developing ever stronger urges t run away.

 

[City Slicker]

Hope my first attempt at including a video - I heard this for the first time last year sitting in my car outside my therapists' office when I was making the decision to leave because therapy was making things worse and not the worse that's a good (therapeutic) worse.

She sings about the 'walking wounded' and the hope that getting through December will help her start again, and that hope can move mountains.

 

[Sammyiam]

Hi,
I was just saying the very same thing to my husband a few days ago. I said to him I would love to find the biggest rock around and crawl under and come out in a couple of months when it's all finished. Just like a bear ! The sad thing for me is my daughter is coming home from Boston for 6 weeks with her new partner, which I have only ever talked to on Skype,and I should be so happy to see her it's been 15 months since she was home and I am so scared he is going to hate me it's driving me crazy. They are only with us for 6 or 7 days as they are travelling around the whole country, but I'm just so embarrassed at how much of a mess I'm in at the moment, I just want to run away and hide.

Can we all run away together !

 

[darrenS]

many people find this time of year extremely difficult , it is easiest the loneliest time of the year. I used to suffer and want to avoid it at all costs, i tend now to direct all my energy into doing things with the kids and doing the best i can. I just ride it through knowing there is an end to it. Having family in Greece and Australia helps as well - its just too hard and expensive to get together and it saves me having to front all the family dynamics.

 

[therisa]

The holiday season, for me, was one of those times, which I have come to fear, never knowing, how my abusive brother would react to any gift, I gave him. Over the past decade, I have just slept through this time, avoiding everyone, like the plague. Might watch a DVD or two, but nothing else.

 

[arfie]

My hibernation instincts seem to be tied to the winter solstice. I start feeling better when the days start getting longer again. Here in my piece of the world, that will be December 22nd this year. I am pretty convinced my hibernation instincts are something different than all the trauma anniversaries I have in December. The low energy thing feels physical.

 

[seedling]

My trauma occurred this time of year. All my memories and flashbacks are filled with Christmas decorations and the type of weather we have this time of year. It all reminds me. It gets easier each year and part of me wishes for it not to be over so that I can work on it in ways I can only work on it when I'm so immersed in it ,as I am at this time of year.
Gets overwhelming some days and my stress gets higher faster.

 

[Ellabella44]

sign me up for a coma till spring.... (climbs in sleeping bag) i wont see my parents for eiether holiday i think ... my brother and step sisters will understand. I'm too raw to be around my mother... and one of my worst things happened to me in january. my husbands family makes me anxious... the kids are loud, and they all drink. and last time at a family party i had social anxiety so bad that i zoned out and walked around the house and up and down the street for a while.. um yeah nothings wrong guys , just out for a walk , nope im not running away lol.

 

[The Albatross]

I struggle with the holidays. My last near traumatic break was October to late January. It is a melancholy time, stressful... but easier as time passes. I deal with the holidays by working them or at least part of them.