Risking Reaching Out

[Icon Nikon]

You Silly Rabbit J-J!!! :)

As for the drugs, I need the massive IV steroids to keep my airway open.

As for the di*kish doctors and triggering hospital surrounding, dissociative escape is my only relief - no spa week, but a nice thought for which I thank you!

As for your words, caring sentiment and spirited kindness, are far more important than typos and grammar.

As for "you thinking you're not good with words or comfort", well just hearing from you that you were out there thinking of me was heard loud and clear. So, I guess you "ain't" as bad as you think you are!?!

Thank you and I'll have to post a special "J-J MMD" on the "It Made My Day (IMMD)" thread! :)

Alex

 

[Deaf Global Nomad]

Hi J-J and Alex!!!!

J-J, your post is awesome!!!!! Thank you for caring for a very special person... Yes, dear Alex, you are the special person I am talking about. Let the nurses and doctors do with your body what they need to. Bright and I know that they will fix you to then send you home. I know the meds suck. Between not being able to sleep and not being able to breathe well, your body needs those meds. I hope your phone can recharge so that you can be back on the forum . No place better to be than the forum when you can't sleep. Dissociating is also ok if you need it. It is a coping mechanism special for us.

We will be back as soon as we can...

All the friends on the forum, please keep Alex entertained while she is trapped in the nightmare of the hospital. The bunnies were perfect, J-J!

 

[Icon Nikon]

Posted while being triggered by hurricane Irene. I creatively framed these lyrics and gave them to my siblings when their first child was born - as a warning from me, the family target and blacklisted outcast, that the abuse stops with this generation. Each of my siblings' children still has it and knows that I have always been watching over them, and there if needed.

CHILDREN WILL LISTEN (song/lyrics from "Into the Woods")

How do you say to your child in the night
Nothing's all black but then nothing's all white?
How do you say it will all be alright
When you know that it might not be true?
What do you do?

Careful the things you say
Children will listen
Careful the things you do
Children will see
And learn

Children may not obey
But children will listen
Children will look to you
For which way to turn
To learn what to be
Careful before you say
"Listen to me"
Children will listen!

Careful the wish you make
Wishes are children
Careful the path they take
Wishes come true
Not free

Careful the spell you cast
Not just on children
Sometimes the spell may last
Past what you can see
And turn against you
Careful the tale you tell
That is the spell
Children will listen!

How can you say to a child who's in flight
Don't slip away and I won't hold so tight?
What can you say that no matter how slight won't be misunderstood?

What do you leave to your child when you're dead
Only what ever you put in it's head
Things that your mother and father had said
Which were left to them too

Careful what you say
Children will listen
Careful you do it too
Children will see and learn

Oh
Guide them but step away
Children will glisten
Tamper with what is true
And children will turn
If just to be free
Careful before you say
"Listen to me"
Children will listen!!!


May we all be protectors of children for we don't wish them to need this forum...And before we do or say anything, may we always be mindful that "CHILDREN WILL SEE and CHILDREN WILL LISTEN"!!!

 

[goingonhope]

I AM NOTHING!!!

You may feel like nothing, but this just can't be so though I do respect you and these feelings. I feel the same way some days, ..today I'm feeling like near nothing. Anyhow, ...it just can't be that you're nothing, nor I, ...why? because we can't be perfect, or we do wrong, or we're held in blame for having done something wrong. Or, we're not exactly who and what others or ourselves may expect. Do we have to be spectacular, flawless or above being human in order to feel like someone and something? No!

I'm so sorry Icon you've been feeling this way and do hope you feel even somewhat better soon. Thinking of you and wishing you improved health and wellness.

Let me know please if you don't want this post or your quote here. I didn't know where best at first to leave it for you but then thought that your introduction is a good place.

 

[Icon Nikon]

GoingOnHope,

I am sorry that I can not write at this time to express my thanks. I feel downright dreadful but must head off to get radiation tx. Maybe it will 'irradiate' my wordless mood.

I also do hope that your feelings and mood improve as well. You do not need/deserve to feel even anywhere close to "almost nothing"!

So: