Roller Coaster Going Down

[JarHed]

Yeah the youtube did make me smile, damit. Just tired and wornout. I won't go into my life over the last few years but it's not gettin' any better. When I'm like this, I just can't see the light at the end of the tunnel. I feel like the old warrior that has to suit up for one more battle. It's just that there's always one more battle.

I wouldn't think twice about helping another vet and giving words of encouragement but I don't and can't do it for me. I know that there's something wrong with that but it's just the way I am now. Thanks for the words of encouragement. It just seems like every second is an eternity of pain that just won't or at least seems like it won't ever change. Don't think I've been this low in a while.

 

[Fargo1]

JarHed,

I know the feeling. I can see the trees when someone else is talking about it. But it is just a huge dark forest when it is my own Beast. I think that is just how it goes unfortunately. It will get better brother. Hang tough.

 

[drabs08]

A lot of good thougths, here, & i"m not one to usually admit this Jar, but when the beast has me at my worse, I've felt if I kill myself then the Beast cant torment me, but I'm a Christian, & I have kids, they need me, & I believe in a hell much worse then weve all seen, tho, sometimes it seems like I'm there when I'm in the mode, I'm a loner also, thats hard to be when your dad. Working at it. Praying for you all brothers

 

[Jimmy1]

Same, I now want to play football with my grandsons. They keep me going. And by the time they are old enough I will find another reason.