I feel like I will never be able to marry or share my life with someone. I’m not comfortable doing anything on a first date, even holding hands or any kind of hug. I feel like a burden and something not worth tolerating. I got sexually assaulted AGAIN after my ex-friend dragged me into an already uncomfortable situation. I yearn for a relationship but can’t even consider myself being worth it. My body dysmorphia has me avoiding any mirrors or reflective surface. How could somebody love me when I hate myself? This is my first post and I have no idea what to do.