I have so been there and still find it hard, but a bit easier than before. I don't think long term has to be 20 yrs out. do you have anything you are passionate about? Anywhere you want to see? Anything you want to learn? Do you want a pet? It took me forever to realize that some of the passions I had before trauma are still there. I really am not sure what I will do with them, but I can make a goal that I somehow want to explore and use those passions . There was a point for me that short term goals were something I would accomplish that day...like get out of bed, take a bath, get dressed...and my long term would be I would go one place that week not including therapy or create one piece of art. Keep pushing...think about what you like, is there anything that even brings you the briefest moment of joy?