Should I visit my dying mother?

[caroline_13]

I guess I feel I could have handled it all so much better but I didn't have the skills back then. I was terrified.
I actually am employed as a mental health family peer worker now. I feel that I should be able to do better because of my job title as well. It really just stinks that I couldn't have a father and mother who were able to love me as I needed. You can't get eveything you want in life. That's a lesson we all learn and some of us more than others.

Your energy is full of love; I hope you can see that.

What I am hearing is that you are terrified of the worst-case scenario. There are always going to be pros with reuniting with an abuser - whether that is self-approval, society approval, or just some of the time they're likeable.