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A few months ago I finally found a T that is great. Has helped me clear up a LOT of memories which is what I need now.
I can now say for certain that I was molested by at least 3 different people. 2 of them I’m not sure about yet so I don’t & won’t say anything about them. But the 3rd I know for certain & it’s my father.
this has all happened within the past 3 weeks so my head is still in a whirlwind. Add to that, my niece got married 2 weeks ago & all but one of my siblings came in for it.
this was SO hard. My mom just told me that none of my siblings believe that dad did this. So with all of them here, I just kept/keep feeling so alone. Since then I’ve spoken to 4 of them & asked them straight out if they believe me. 3 pretty much said they believe something happened to me but not that it’s dad. Each conversation was gut wrenching and I promised myself I wouldn’t ask any more of them… at least not now. But I’m the youngest so they all knew him longer and I… I just need it.
the 4th sibling said they believe me. Yay. But not really because it’s one out of so many more. And the one I’m closest with doesn’t believe me and I just don’t feel able to talk to her. Not now.
of course all of this made me doubt myself all over again which is so upsetting because I’ve worked so hard in therapy to get past that. In my last session, the only way I was able to believe myself again was to go fully back “there”. my T saw what a toll it took on me and told me I should try to get to a place where I can believe myself without having to retraumize myself. Haven’t gotten there yet.
feeling so alone. So sad. Floating in the past with the present pullling me back every so often. Trying to ignore & forget it all by watching mind numbing shows.
Anyone been through this with family? Advice? Thanks
I can now say for certain that I was molested by at least 3 different people. 2 of them I’m not sure about yet so I don’t & won’t say anything about them. But the 3rd I know for certain & it’s my father.
this has all happened within the past 3 weeks so my head is still in a whirlwind. Add to that, my niece got married 2 weeks ago & all but one of my siblings came in for it.
this was SO hard. My mom just told me that none of my siblings believe that dad did this. So with all of them here, I just kept/keep feeling so alone. Since then I’ve spoken to 4 of them & asked them straight out if they believe me. 3 pretty much said they believe something happened to me but not that it’s dad. Each conversation was gut wrenching and I promised myself I wouldn’t ask any more of them… at least not now. But I’m the youngest so they all knew him longer and I… I just need it.
the 4th sibling said they believe me. Yay. But not really because it’s one out of so many more. And the one I’m closest with doesn’t believe me and I just don’t feel able to talk to her. Not now.
of course all of this made me doubt myself all over again which is so upsetting because I’ve worked so hard in therapy to get past that. In my last session, the only way I was able to believe myself again was to go fully back “there”. my T saw what a toll it took on me and told me I should try to get to a place where I can believe myself without having to retraumize myself. Haven’t gotten there yet.
feeling so alone. So sad. Floating in the past with the present pullling me back every so often. Trying to ignore & forget it all by watching mind numbing shows.
Anyone been through this with family? Advice? Thanks