Small things, great victories. What’s yours?

[OliveJewel]

Cleaned the stove hood—damn hard job! Used the Pink Stuff. That stuff is a miracle!

 

[Friday]

I can move my right hand, today. Been over a week of not being able to. Expect I’ll lose function again, here, soon enough. Along with my right arm & right leg. But today. I could move it. Had control over it. All day. Not just for seconds. I suppose I should be grateful for those days where I have even seconds or minutes/moments. Instead of all day, all night, all week, all month. But? I’m not. As I don’t know why this is happening. 14 months of IDFK. So I’m trying to take the wins, when & where, I find them.

Today? I could do this. So? I did.

Sometimes I truly think this life is a dream, and real life is that I’ve been flung from a wreck, or fallen off a cliff, or washed up on a rocky shore… and am lying on rocks drifting in and out of consciousness.

 

[Defaultxlove]

got a 100% on my quiz first try!

 

[OliveJewel]

I figured out how to remove YouTube Shorts from my YouTube app. What a relief! that feature was such a time suck and brain numbing!

 

[Tinyflame]

I went where I thought I wasn't welcome. And thought it's probably the right thing because the weather made it almost impossible and that's often how it is when I am trying to do something important. Relieved too because high stress has made me question everything. Was comforting.
I battled not knowing where to go. Actually helped someone out with directions! (The blind leading the blind lol.) Saw a sign I liked, something like Courage is found in unlikely places. Met a couple of new people.
Next up: haircut I hope.

 

[OliveJewel]

Cooked dinner even though it was late and I was tired, and it didn’t take too long—chicken fricasée
Washed most of the dishes
Took my evening vitamins
Going to bed at a reasonable time

 

[Tinyflame]

Was walking home at night and could see 3 people ahead coming towards me, on a bridge over a creek. Thought, ohoh, if they throw me over I'll probably drown as I can't swim, and some fear as didn't want to go. Versus, if I threw myself in I would drown.

 

[OliveJewel]

Did two chores and cooked dinner before leaving for work. Taking care of future me! Realizing that another term for self care is future care.

 

[ziter]

Did a chore without procrastinating! Yay executive functioning!

 

[Tinyflame]

Holy Hannabelle I made it to the Dr, and actually may now have a Dr!(?) And said, "Now that hurts" once, which I always don't mean to but keep mum. I'm supposed to eat soft foods for a week- thought, I'll have to dip the cookies lol. OMG All I feel like now is nachos.

 

[Cerridwen again]

I have been working with a therapist to prepare for EMDR sessions. The lead up requires introspective questions about yourself that would usually instantly instill panic for having to share anything over-personal or emotional or try to evaluate myself objectively without getting super weird about it...for some reason I was able to answer the questions calmly and actually think about them instead of an intense under current of panic about being open and vulnerable. Every time I didn't feel it I was surprised but so happy!

 

[basil pesto]

After contacting more than 100 potential therapists, I finally found one who's available and who feels helpful. She guided me through a child-regression episode last week; it was really intense and she handled it so well, no one has ever done that for me before.