So Afraid Of Making An Appointment...

[y5L]

I finally called the employee assistance number to get a referral for someone to talk to. That was hard enough.
Now I have to actually call the office to make an appointment. I'm not sure why I'm so afraid. I am brave enough to talk to people that are close to me... but they have done all they know to do to help, I think, and I should probably just give them a break from being my therapists and let them just be my friends. That's their job, after all. And since work is paying for the first few appointments, it's not going to cost me anything to go except time. And what is the worst that could happen? I mean, my primary care said the anxiety and nightmares I was experiencing was Satan... and I highly doubt a psychologist will say anything that awful. So it can't be worse than talking to my primary care doctor. And if it's not worse, it's probably better... and if it's better, it can help more... and if it helps more, then it's good... and if it's good, then what am I waiting for??

 

[Deleted member 28986]

For me, the toughest part was getting to the first appointment. Know that you're doing the right thing. Getting help is not something to be ashamed of. It's a sign of strength.

I like your avatar. Have you considered that the answer you're looking for might be 42? ;-)

Hugs.

 

[Jane.l]

I guess it's just fear of the unknown, which is totally understandable, especially after the satan comments, which has to be one of the most ridiculous comments ever!

So maybe try breaking it into steps, first just make an appointment, don't think any further ahead about what might happen when you go etc - just ring and get booked in, then when you go to the appointment remember you can leave whenever you want and you never have to go back if it's not for you. You are just dipping your toe in and testing the water. Often we put a lot of pressure on ourselves and forget we have choices and it gets easier when we remember - for me anyway.

 

[y5L]

I called and left a message. I think you're right, @Jane.l, it is fear of the unknown. There's a great song by Brett Dennen that has as the chorus "Darlin' do not fear what you don't really know." I think I'll go give it a listen!

 

[Jane.l]

I'm going to check that song out too! Well done, small steps :)

 

[y5L]

I made the appointment! It's next week! Yay! Not much time to freak out! ; )

 

[Tinyflame]

Good for you @y5L . :) :hug:

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Yay for your bravery and courage in making this appointment for yourself.

 

[Karen12]

Good job, y5L!

 

[Ocean5]

Can relate so well... first appointment was hardest for me. I couldn't work and paced for 2 days before it. I'm glad I went. It was a relief in many ways. I hope you made yours. If not try to reschedule.

Primary care - satan?!? Wow - seriously find another.