So Cal Turns To No Cal

[shimmerz]

No cool visions, and no, the idea was to support him in his transfer for work. I quit work and packed up and moved.

I get that anger is a reaction that others feel (underlying fear and frustration). It is a long story that I won't bore anyone with but it seemed to me to be a cover for self serving desires. I may be wrong, but you know situations change people. I saw glimpses prior to my getting sick as his personality took a shift of epic proportions. Perhaps this was a good thing as it spares me from having to be a part of that.

Thanks @joeylittle . I am not so worried about my 'things' as right now I have nowhere to put them. I have lost 99% of what I had. I feel like the little I have left is not worth fighting over. ;-)

 

[Recovery4Me]

I hear you. Perhaps I am being dense. Is your relationship over dearheart? :hug::hug:

 

[shimmerz]

Completely, soundly, without a question or a doubt. Somehow I thought if he could deal with the PTSD (which I thought was THE most horrible thing to put someone through), that we were golden. Just goes to show that each of us (PTSD or not) have 'triggers' that seem to jump out of nowhere.

 

[Recovery4Me]

Oh my...:bawling:. I guess I am dense. :banghead: I am so freakin' sorry!!!

I guess, I am so conditioned to mine being an arsh wipe under pressure, I thought..."Typical." and assumed yours would come through in a few days. Jeez la weez! So now what dearheart? :(

 

[shimmerz]

No worries @Recovery4Me .

So now what dearheart? :(

Unknown at this time. I thought I was in deep doo-doo a few years back. Now, that seems like a walk in the park.

 

[Recovery4Me]

Yeah on the scale of relativity, I guess it isn't nothing that you can't handle. However, it is still an tragic development...both your health concern and your fair weathered friend.

 

[rightkindofme]

My neighbor has gone through hell with chronic pancreatitis. Doctors literally yelling at her that she is a secret alcoholic and a liar and.... oh man.

I am terribly sorry to hear all of this. I'm glad you have friends who can be with you even though they are not being supportive in the best of ways. I hope that they figure out giving you space.

Gosh I'm so sorry. :(

 

[shimmerz]

Ahhhh, @rightkindofme, thank you so much for the good wishes. I love my friends, they just aren't used to me being quiet. They also have no idea why I am not triggering anymore (info on this contained in another posting). They are worried and I love them but I also have this new voice that roars when I am not being listened to. That is new since I got back too. My poor peeps.

Yes, the pancreatitis is nasty. The doctors and nurses are nastier. I was treated like a criminal while I was in the hospital. My reactions are not so good when someone calls me a liar and I feel that the constant badgering about drinking and my 'most likely morphine addiction' (lol) were a bit over the edge. If I hadn't been so weak I swear I would have hit someone (and I am not violent). It was the attitude more than the disease.

 

[Recovery4Me]

Hey Shimmerz...thought you like this to present to those doctors.

" In most cases, acute pancreatitis is caused by gallstones or heavy alcohol use. Other causes include medications, infections, trauma, metabolic disorders and surgery. In up to 30% of people with acute pancreatitis, the cause is unknown."

In about 45% of people, chronic pancreatitis is caused by long-time alcohol use. Other causes include gallstones, hereditary disorders of the pancreas, cystic fibrosis, high triglycerides, and certain medicines. In about 25% of cases, the cause of chronic pancreatitis is unknown."



http://www.webmd.com/digestive-disorders/digestive-diseases-pancreatitis

 

[shimmerz]

You rock, @Recovery4Me. How sweet of you to share that! Now if only I could get a doctor to listen! This does help me know that I am not crazy or that some DID part of me is not an alcoholic that this DID part of me doesn't remember! Hugs and many thanks.

 

[Recovery4Me]

:devilish: Ahem...most Dr.s have E-mails in the States.;) What about your lovely country? :hug:

Guess I am just tired of people being accused...:sour: as if they make their selves sick. I will get over it.
Grrrrr....snarl...don't pick on my pal. lol

 

[shimmerz]

lol lol lol. Doctors in Canada with e-mails? lol. I can barely eek out an appointment every 2 months! lol.

Yes, actually right from the time I was put in US hospital until the time I walked out of the door of the Canadian hospital people were accusing me of being an alcoholic. Interesting that they didn't notice in the entire time that I was admitted that I didn't once ask to go down to the pub or have a friend smuggle in a pounder of vodka. I willing gave over my super duper pain killers. You would think that would be a hint that I wasn't addicted to those as they mentioned to my son was a large concern.

And these people are said to have a high education? How about common sense?

Thanks for sticking up for me my friend! :D