So Close, Yet So Far!

[AngelKeeperJ]

I do like to "stop by" people's diaries, and offer encouragement, and experiences that I have had...it's a great place to pour out your pain, and receive comfort which you SO MUCH deserve!

 

[Deleted member 34535]

Joey, if you would like to move the thread to diaries, that would be fine with me. I see what you mean and agree with you. Thank you.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

It would likely be faster if you reported the thread and asked in the report for it to be moved. Be specific though as there are seperare diary areas (trauma dairies = google-able, trauma member diaries = non-google-able).

Or create a help desk thread but reporting it (the thread itself) would be faster i think.

 

[joeylittle]

No, @crc53liamt - it's here and it's fine. Just bear it in mind next time you are posting - and thanks.

 

[Deleted member 34535]

I dunno that it's evil... but I can surely tell you that watching someone you love be transformed...

I think the substances themselves have no good value to humans, thereby making them evil in my humble opinion. Those who have their varied mental health diagnosis long for moments to be pain free. These substances do offer these brief pain free moments. But their aftermath is far,far worse. Just my opinion. TKU

 

[illusionist]

Having recently lost another brother to drugs, I fully understand what the Op is saying. I'm still angry and sad that my brother didn't grow a pair... To me, this doesn't mean to just snap out of it....it means ( to me ) to stand up to the past, face it, feel it, go through the pain, and deal with recovery. It can take years to get to a place where it is more manageable, but better than leaving a trail of destruction, as well as a total waste of a special life....it's a horrible way to die.

I agree that pain is part of life, part of our lives.....and know, from my own experience, it's how I learned to manage it and cope better with the effects, that matter.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

it means ( to me ) to stand up to the past, face it, feel it, go through the pain, and deal with recovery. It can take years to get to a place where it is more manageable, but better than leaving a trail of destruction,

I spent 10 yrs in denial because it was the only way at age 18 to function and i had no idea how to process it or talk about it or even admit it. Not from lack of trying as i knew i needed help and went to total of 4 free therapists. All took advantage of me leaving me more terrified the next time to ask for help.

I then spent the next 5 yrs of the 7 with my current therapist huffing duster.

I did get clean, each time, on my own, no rehab. But the start of processing the trauma wasnt possible for years and years.

Not all can get the help they truely need off the bat. And im not excusing self medication through drug use, i never would do that. Im just advising my view of the above comment.

 

[illusionist]

Sorry, my post was from a personal perspective...relating to my brother who never tried to get help with dealing with the past, even before the drug problem....he did have offers of help, but refused, preferring to cry into the neck of a bottle. He was very good at expressing how he felt...always blaming the past for his failings as an adult.

I am aware that I'm still angry with him, hence my reaction.

I really do understand how hard it is to get help out there, as well as denial etc.....I've been there...as most on here have. The positive thing is that we are all on here to help ourselves...aiming to get better.