Thank you! Starting to catch up. Yoga helped.I know the relief must be overwhelming and it's important to give yourself a break
Well, I had a very detailed plan before this happened.Do you have a plan for when rent is due next month?
What I know is that next month I have a mini pay on 10th and the regular monthly pay from the same client- about a month from invoice as long as I do the work timely unlike next time.
So the plan is- get free or paid therapy to avoid skipping work for mental health reasons. Fullfill deadline on time. That's the 50%.
The other 50% is not wanting to rely on one client again, which means setting hours to work on my online business (even set 50e to invest in it- not ground breaking but a start) whilst applying for jobs locally or at least more online clients. Anything that would mean not relying on one.
I used to be scared of failing but I think after this month I am WAY less scared of that than of eviction, so I should make use of that.
That's the plan.
Now, the part of the plan not accounted for: although I am paying rent tomorrow my landlord is very angry with me.
She may still want me to move out (not in a day but in 10 days or 30). If that happens, part of what I made, instead of going to her, will go towards deposit and first for a new place. Meanwhile I'll pay her as much as I reasonably can and make financial plan for paying her the rest.
I will apologize, and I will lay both options clearly for her. And then I'll go with what she decides.
I will still try to find a cheaper place, but, it would be nice to worry about 1 problem at a time and have at least 30 days to do it.
Though, self doubt aside, due to my landlord selling my last apartment on a while while I was travelling, I returned to a bnb while my posessions were with my best friend, and I had 3 days to find a new place. I found one in 1.5 days. So I should stop doubting myself.
Anyway. This is the part of the plan not in my control, we'll see what she says tomorrow. But the work part is in my control.
And this was some of the scariest moments I've had in a while, so I definitely don't want to repeat them.
I believe I can find more work. And I'll try holding onto that belief this time.