J_trustno1
Diamond Member
I know that this statement isn't true. Here is what happened when I went for a walk outside about 30 mins ago in this windy, cloudy rainy day.
I needed to get some fresh air so i went for a walk on my street. I was walking and trying to do some mindfulness to get rid of the anxiety i was in. The cold breeze was calming me down until this moron dark Indian neighbor walked in and told asked me what's wrong with me. I told him that I am just going for my walk and getting good air. Then he asked me what do you do out of the blue! I said, I am just applying for jobs and it's tough out there. That's all he needed to hear to tell me that I am "useless" and "I am of no use to any employer"! Yeah right!
I then asked him what made you say this? He said, "you have NO experience and no one will hire you". He started puking all those negative and toxic comments at me which I have been hearing from my so called Indian family. So I looked him in the eye and asked him, why do you think I am useless. Then he went on to tell me that of the color of my skin. Yeah! he said NZ is a racist country and that's why us black people won't get jobs in here. I was shocked to hear that statement. I said, I don't think so. He said there are many examples here where a lot of Indians come to this country looking for a job and don't find one because of their English is not good. He then went on to say that your English is okay but as soon as they see you they won't hire you because of the color of your skin and a blonde with same degree to yours will get the job but you won't. Then he went on and on about telling me that his daughter couldn't find a job because of her color and she worked for 6 months for free to get the job she's in.
Then I told him that I worked for my supervisor as a research assistant and what are you on about? And my supervisor is a white guy and he never thought of me like that. He said "You are NOTHING to the job market and your supervisor's job isn't a job that will get you future employment. You are just wasting your time. Indian parents pay for their qualifications thinking their kids will get a job but it's not easy to get the job with our color". Then i had to correct him again and I said, "I PAID for my qualification and I will get a job and i am applying for jobs everywhere in NZ and started applying for jobs in Australia too".
Then that bastard went on to say that no one will hire you in Australia or overseas because you are useless to the them without experience. He kept on throwing negative comments at me till thankfully heavy rain started.
This shit has affected my mood so much. The more I am trying to be positive the more i am hearing such nasty comments from people like this and at some point start believing in their shit. The more i am trying to NOT hate the bloody INDIANS the more horrible experiences I am getting from such people. I am working on my CBT and it has been a success to some point until I meet such Toxic people.
Now I am left with the only question and that question is, Am I really useless and will I NOT get a job?
I needed to get some fresh air so i went for a walk on my street. I was walking and trying to do some mindfulness to get rid of the anxiety i was in. The cold breeze was calming me down until this moron dark Indian neighbor walked in and told asked me what's wrong with me. I told him that I am just going for my walk and getting good air. Then he asked me what do you do out of the blue! I said, I am just applying for jobs and it's tough out there. That's all he needed to hear to tell me that I am "useless" and "I am of no use to any employer"! Yeah right!
I then asked him what made you say this? He said, "you have NO experience and no one will hire you". He started puking all those negative and toxic comments at me which I have been hearing from my so called Indian family. So I looked him in the eye and asked him, why do you think I am useless. Then he went on to tell me that of the color of my skin. Yeah! he said NZ is a racist country and that's why us black people won't get jobs in here. I was shocked to hear that statement. I said, I don't think so. He said there are many examples here where a lot of Indians come to this country looking for a job and don't find one because of their English is not good. He then went on to say that your English is okay but as soon as they see you they won't hire you because of the color of your skin and a blonde with same degree to yours will get the job but you won't. Then he went on and on about telling me that his daughter couldn't find a job because of her color and she worked for 6 months for free to get the job she's in.
Then I told him that I worked for my supervisor as a research assistant and what are you on about? And my supervisor is a white guy and he never thought of me like that. He said "You are NOTHING to the job market and your supervisor's job isn't a job that will get you future employment. You are just wasting your time. Indian parents pay for their qualifications thinking their kids will get a job but it's not easy to get the job with our color". Then i had to correct him again and I said, "I PAID for my qualification and I will get a job and i am applying for jobs everywhere in NZ and started applying for jobs in Australia too".
Then that bastard went on to say that no one will hire you in Australia or overseas because you are useless to the them without experience. He kept on throwing negative comments at me till thankfully heavy rain started.
This shit has affected my mood so much. The more I am trying to be positive the more i am hearing such nasty comments from people like this and at some point start believing in their shit. The more i am trying to NOT hate the bloody INDIANS the more horrible experiences I am getting from such people. I am working on my CBT and it has been a success to some point until I meet such Toxic people.
Now I am left with the only question and that question is, Am I really useless and will I NOT get a job?
