Sufferer Starting To Deal With The Details Of My Abuse

[beautifuldisaster]

I am here because while I have a good support system no one quite understands what I am going through. I am recently diagnosed with Complex PTSD but have dealt with the symptoms most of my life. I have just thought I was losing my mind until I sought out a good therapist. I hope to find support here, today has been a little rougher than most as I had a pretty intense flashback and have literally been sleeping and sick since.

I guess I should say a few things about my situation I had an abusive boyfriend for 6 years and I am just getting into the details of that with my therapist now which has seemed to just worsen the anxiety/depression/mood swings. I am also dealing with multiple sexual abuse problems some related to that relationship some not. I hope to find people who can relate and hopefully make me not feel so much like a basket case because sometimes I feel completely abnormal from everyone I know, which makes me feel a little alone.

Thanks for taking the time to read this, sorry if it's a little scattered. I'm slightly nervous :)

 

[SweetPeaandSunBird]

Glad you decided to post and join the forum. I hope you find it a safe and helpful place (I know I have). Welcome!

 

[Jacnic]

Welcome, Beautifuldiaster! You will find many here who really do understand.

 

[MileOneal]

New to all of this as well. Two months ago I got back from a combat tour in Afghanistan. A lot of past problems I had were exacerbated by my experiences there. Never thought I had PTSD for pride reasons until I had a breakdown while home on leave this last month. Changed my whole outlook and made me realize I'd been putting up walls that only further isolated me. Hope we can all find some good here.

 

[intothelight]

Hi Beautifuldisaster,

Welcome to the PTSD Forum! :)

The first post is always the hardest and you should be proud of yourself for stepping out of your comfort zone and making it. There is also a sister site: MySexAbuse.com, you may find helpful. The link can be found at the bottom of this page.

I hope you find the information and support here beneficial as you work on healing.

Wishing you the best.

Debbie

 

[Lucycat]

Hi BD,

Welcome to the forum! I remember my first post and how scared I was. Now I look back and see just how much I have been comfortable to share and how much help I have had on here. It is a remarkable forum and I hope you find it just as supportive and informative.

Best wishes,
Lucy x

 

[KP the nut]

Hi and welcome to the forum.

I'm slightly nervous

That is perfectly natural. Well done on introducing yourself.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Welcome. :)

 

[alitaram]

Hi, I'm new here too, and suffer from the same thing as you. Complex PTSD is quite a pain in the arse.

Hopefully we'll both find help.

 

[badpolar]

Hey! I'm hear because my partner was told she had bipolar for 2 years until I went along to hospital and said I thought they had it worng they then agreed but she still hooked on the meds. Nightmare I know my partner suffered abuse in her early teens and I feel this is what is at the root of this I would just like to thank all you young women who have found the strength to talk about this as I feel it's been the greatest help for me trying to understand these things I'm sorry for this rough text i am just rushing it on my phone but I have such an amazing story to tell on this matter and if only to help one person as some of your story's have helped me I will take the time one of the days to put it on hear thanks again talk again soon..

 

[beautifuldisaster]

Badpolar, I was told I had bipolar also until I got with a psychologist that couldn't perscribe medications it's crazy how much doctors try to medicate and not actually fix the problem, it can be a long road but it's worth it as time goes on. I'm going through those motions now. Good luck to your partner. Thanks for the support everyone :)