Suckered In By The Benzo........pissed Off And Venting

[Jimmy1]

Practice what I preach I say.......

Since September last year they have been modifying my meds to find a more suitable combination. They were mainly concentrating on my antidepressants and sleep medication and in the process they forgot my anxiety meds, Xanax.

Being an addict to both pills and pot, I thought I was managing things quite well. I was even preaching on this here forum about managing benzodiazipams. Well before I knew it, I have gone from September last year on .25 mg when required to 1.5 mg daily just to get 30 min shut eye and chill out.

So yesterday cold turkey started again. They are in my cupboard, both a .25 script and a .5 script, but after a hell night last night and a pretty f*cked up day, I thought I would research.
I found that benzo's are pretty much a barbiturate and should not be stopped abruptly.

There you go Mr Stubborn thinking that he kicked his pot habit over two years ago and quit smoking all cold turkey, gave up drinking for over 18 months and kicked a codeine habit, could do it all on his own.

Serves me right for letting it get away.

So after research I am now going to wean myself off slowly and the Boss is going to supervise.

FML.

Once I am off them I am going to put them downstairs as the dog has been prescribed them on days when thunderstorms are brewing. I shit you not.

 

[Anglesachse]

Can`t say, that I can see your dog getting in to the cupboard and opening the bottle Jimmy mate. Especialy when he is having a bad day because of thunderstorms. You might want to put the tablets in one of those weekly dosage boxes with a sliding lid. He`ll have a much better chance of getting one of those open, what with not having opposing thumbs.

Just an observation.

And just out of curiosity, do you need to ween him of slowly aswell, or is it just a case of a one hit wonder so to speak?

 

[Ned]

No, No, f**king No Angle. You haven't grasped the fundementals -
Thunderstorm brewing:
Dog - 'Giz a pill, NOW (Woof)'
Jimmy - 'No, Give paw'
(Dog gives paw)
(Jimmy gives dog benzo, dog wags tail)
Dog - 'Woof'
Jimmy 'Good dog, now get it right next time or it's extra practice after hours, and my tea's a salad...'

 

[Jimmy1]

f*ck you guys are funny.

This year has been a fairly dry 'Wet Season' if it makes sense. We were meant to have 5 or 6 cyclones and we only have had one far out to sea, but that's not to say there is not going to be any. The Wet lasts till April.

The dog has half chewed through a wooden door, taken a metal strip of the front screen door and ripped its dew claws off, all in a frantic effort to escape. Margaret says its like me when I get scattered and stressed, I just want to run away. lmao.

The dog, Shan, well she has been prescribed a max dosage of 1 mg total for a day. Well we gave her a half one night and I swear she was lying on her back smiling at us, stoned off her head. Beats the alternative.

 

[Ned]

Me I hate that oppressive clag before a big storm. And I hate humidity in general.
Still, at least they work for you & Shan.
Doc put me on them once and it did f*ck all, not sure what that says........

 

[Sludge]

Man, I glad I am not the only one that is pissed off at giving Xanax to folks with addictive history. (Yeah, I'm one of them too...serious boozehound and joint-master back in the day....)

I do admit, for the first week or so, they did help a bit, but I am one of those paradoxical effect guys...nothing like being high AND ready to tear down walls at the same time.

Hang in there Jimmy.

I have three pugs. Two ignore thunderstorms. One is half Chihuahua and HATES loud noises as much as I do, which, living in the central united states next to an airbase means he and I hide in the basement under a blanket together quite often...

 

[Pepsi]

Evening guys, I have a question on the benzos. Been taking ativan for a year as needed and it helps, particularly when I'm out of the house or traveling. When I've had a really bad day I come home and drink but find I feel SO GOOD on vodka that I tend to keep drinking, get smashed and make a general ass of myself. My family is tolerant but still. I started to WANT that vodka a lot, so last week I dumped out all my booze. That Friday I took ativan instead, as much as I thought I needed. I wake up Tuesday with absolutely NO MEMORY of the prior three days. I apparently had a great time, went to a concert, ate like 60 of the free cookies while telling all kinds of jokes (and I never joke anymore). Scarred the shit out of me to have NO MEMORY whatsoever of those events. Scarred me even more to realize I usually stayed armed and I have no memory of three whole days. So my question is this: Is it better to drink or take the benzos, or should I just figure the symptoms are better than both?

 

[Jimmy1]

Hey Pepsi, it all depends on the type of benzo and what effect each one has. I was on Xanax for quite a while and developed a habit with it. I never had no memory for extended periods like you did, but when you think about it, you can't just dump alcohol if you have been a steady drinker, that is why they prescribe proprananol. It helps with the D'T's.

Who knows, it could have been your body rejecting not having alcohol and taking a drug like antivan. What strenght did you take??

And Pepsi, I am speaking from experience here. When I discharged I hit the bottle and the pot for a long while.
I was first in the door when the club opened and finished at night. I slowed down on the alcohol then kicked it, and cold turkey on the pot.

There are other drugs out there to help, you just have to find them and tell the MD that you like the booze.
We are here to help too when we can.

 

[Bill Simmons]

I'll say this one more time...I have personally seen people put in the hospital for thirty plus days to get of Xanax. All benzo's are addictive but Xanax is near the top of the list. Use with care!!

Also, benzo"s used with booze can suppress your respiratory system and kill you.

 

[Pepsi]

Heya everyone. So the benzos are bad for you, the alcholol is bad for you. What the f*ck? Whats left? Am I supposed to wake up everyday to this shit and be OK with it? I was f*ckign with it. I was GOOD at my job, people liked me, I liked people. Now I'm on all kinds of f*ckign pills and most days wish I woudln't wake up. ALthough benzos kill my memory so who knows if I felt this way yesterda;y. Iraq broke my heart, now I'm suppposed to come back here? Iraq taught me to hate everyone who wasnt' close, now 'm supposed to like everyone unless they do something wrong? Where are these losers from? Jesus f*cking christ. I'm just not that f*cking good. Maybe once, but not now. Not anymore. ONly western civilians can imagine a world were goodness is presumptive. You can't train me to hate and then expect me to come back and love my neighbor.l f*ck my neighbor. f*ck him and the horse he rode in on.

 

[Bill Simmons]

Pepsi...I get it....don't think you are in this boat alone. I get so f*cking sick of the people around I some days want to kill everyone in the Andromeda Galaxy. As I said before, Hell is a big place and it looks like you feel you are dead center in the middle of it. It is going to take a while to walk out. Hang in there dude. This site is home...be glad you got a phone. We can send recon out to look for you if you need it...or some GPS numbers to guide you. Keep your radio turned on and yell when you need a hand.

 

[Pepsi]

Thanks Billly. You art the man.