EmmaDancing
Confident
Okay, so I know I haven't posted on here in a while, but there's been a lot going on.
Okay, so about a month ago I had to go to the ER from the group home I live in because I needed stitches. When I got to the ER, they doctor said I should go back inpatient instead of returning to resi, so they kept me in the ER for a freaking week (!!) while they figured out what to do with me. Then they said that the resi didn't want me back because I was too 'critical' - but my parents could take me home. (Because that makes sense, right?)
So I went home. I haven't lived at home in two years, and it's really hard to cope with the change; nobody has expected me to go home for a while; I'm not even enrolled in any school so I've just been sitting at home being depressed while DMH tries to 'figure it out'.
The thing is, my therapist at the group home was the first therapist I've ever really been able to trust and talk with; we had a really good connection. She was on vacation the week I went to the ER and the week after I first came home, which really sucked, but I kind of expected her to call or get in contact in some way when she got back. But she hasn't, and that makes me so mad because she knew how much I didn't want to go home, how much anxiety I had about being home, all that crap, and I kinda feel that if she hadn't been on vacation they never would've sent me home in the first place. And now she's been back two weeks and hasn't even tried to get in touch. Does she just not care? I thought she actually gave a shit about me but maybe I was wrong. How can she leave me in this situation that never even would've happened if she hadn't been away! I just feel really pissed and betrayed and I keep wondering how she'd feel if I killed myself while at home; would she give a shit then? Has anyone else been in this kind of situation?
Okay, so about a month ago I had to go to the ER from the group home I live in because I needed stitches. When I got to the ER, they doctor said I should go back inpatient instead of returning to resi, so they kept me in the ER for a freaking week (!!) while they figured out what to do with me. Then they said that the resi didn't want me back because I was too 'critical' - but my parents could take me home. (Because that makes sense, right?)
So I went home. I haven't lived at home in two years, and it's really hard to cope with the change; nobody has expected me to go home for a while; I'm not even enrolled in any school so I've just been sitting at home being depressed while DMH tries to 'figure it out'.
The thing is, my therapist at the group home was the first therapist I've ever really been able to trust and talk with; we had a really good connection. She was on vacation the week I went to the ER and the week after I first came home, which really sucked, but I kind of expected her to call or get in contact in some way when she got back. But she hasn't, and that makes me so mad because she knew how much I didn't want to go home, how much anxiety I had about being home, all that crap, and I kinda feel that if she hadn't been on vacation they never would've sent me home in the first place. And now she's been back two weeks and hasn't even tried to get in touch. Does she just not care? I thought she actually gave a shit about me but maybe I was wrong. How can she leave me in this situation that never even would've happened if she hadn't been away! I just feel really pissed and betrayed and I keep wondering how she'd feel if I killed myself while at home; would she give a shit then? Has anyone else been in this kind of situation?