Survival Vs Growth

[Chava]

@sun seeker yes, thanks. Whoa I can't seem to predict meltdowns lately. I missed something like 1.5 in my little formula of things here...feeling immobilized. No thoughts involved that I could correct. Had to figure out what I needed to try to do or change in environment to get out of being really shutdown (after my cat decided to visit me in the bathroom so I put down my knife...hello...wake the f*ck up!). Certain sounds help. Easy to "access" and internalize sound when immobilized and it helps change stuff.

I don't handle some things very well but would be very helpful if I could help myself get unstuck better. Pretty happy about how I managed today. Also on way fewer pills overall but have an inhaler that I'm not feeling I need so much today, which is good.

 

[sun seeker]

Glad you're okay now, I was worried about you. The freezing you describe is something I'm all too familiar with, though the details of it are different for me. You can't rush it in my experience, just have to get through it one step at a time.

I'm glad you have your cat to help ground you. They are so special aren't they... it makes me smile to think of.

Sending lots of warm wishes your way, and some hugs if you accept them. May tomorrow be a brighter day.