The fourteen day challenge

[The Albatross]

Blew it with shaming messages after I woke up from another nightmare. Then piled on about my comment yesterday about the condition of MIL's house and my "not so sincere" invitation to my mom to attend a charity supper this evening. I asked because the hostess asked me too, and felt guilty when she said yes because that wasn't really the answer I was hoping for. So... I need to set my jaw for an evening with my mother and a friend of hers I don't particularly care for... and hope for the best. But hey, it's for a good cause, right?

 

[Shattered]

14 days is a long time. I'm not sure I could go 14 minutes. My Eeyore is much too strong.

 

[Tinyflame]

Oh well, that's 14 minutes without feeling crappy about yourself or present or past or future.

 

[intothelight]

OK, after last Sunday, it has taken me a week to recover. Did have a bit of a "beat up Debbie" fest, but it is all sorted out. Knowing my daughter is safe, employed and even texted "I love you", helped a lot. So today I start at day 1, with a renewed hope that I can break the old record. (In more ways than one! :D)

 

[Iam]

Wow...all of you are such an inspiration!

 

[KP the nut]

Tigger says Spring Challenge, so tomorrow I will join you all again. It is a new week, a new start. Day 1 prepare to be achieved.

 

[The Albatross]

I did well til I got on a scale, and found that my playing fast and loose with my dietary needs (eating on the fly, fast food and a lot of grains and protein... not much veggie) said "FAT!" and then I looked in the mirror... yup, there was another 5 pounds. That's 10 this month. So after beating myself up some I am starting Day 1 again tomorrow morning and have a date with the treadmill before I even get out of my pj's. :cautious: So even though I'm working more, and having less anxiety over all... my eating has been deplorable. I get pretty frustrated because I just can't seem to juggle all the balls and keep them in the air. My self talk is stuff my dad used to call my mom. :unsure:

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Lost track of time, do not know what day this is. Had a rough day. Tommorow will be better, I get my granddaughter for 3 days. She is a source of joy. She brings alot of life with her. It is impossible to be negative withher around. Looking forward to tommorow. I will have to start over. I do not think I can do this.

But on reading all of the responses I don't feel alone. try, try aga. Big sigh

 

[KP the nut]

Oh dear, so much for a fresh start. I was triggered by firefighters in full emergency gear and beat myself up for being so stupid that it triggered me back to my accident.

Start again tomorrow.

 

[The Albatross]

Okay... today is my Day 1. I blew it yesterday in more ways I can describe. I'm chalking it up to major fatigue and a low threshold for stress.

 

[KP the nut]

This isn't going well. Day 1 again tomorrow.

 

[melody]

This is one of the hardest things to do... I seem to be going along just fine and then I catch myself in the mirror and I say the nastiest things...

And as I sit here typing away I'm having an "aha" moment! I realize the reason for a lot of my negative self talk isn't because I hate myself, it's because of my dislike for my mother! You see, I look so much like her (especially this last 5 years or so) and when I catch a glimpse of myself I see her... Hmmmm... Maybe I need to look at this a different way...

Here's to a better "Day one." Hope everyone else has a good one as well!