It is such an interesting feeling reading words written by someone else that feel like they could be coming from my own thoughts.
I experience something so similar. That sick feeling when you know you are on the downward cycle. It hits you like a punch in the gut because you were finally feeling like things might be different now.
I don't have any answers for you and for that I apologize. I have trouble maintaining boundaries, I have trouble with PTSD for so many reasons. It seems like an impossible feat somedays.
I try to focus on the times when he isn't triggered and those days my life seems near perfect. It keeps me going.
I experience something so similar. That sick feeling when you know you are on the downward cycle. It hits you like a punch in the gut because you were finally feeling like things might be different now.
I don't have any answers for you and for that I apologize. I have trouble maintaining boundaries, I have trouble with PTSD for so many reasons. It seems like an impossible feat somedays.
I try to focus on the times when he isn't triggered and those days my life seems near perfect. It keeps me going.