They Call Me Crazy. But I Know The Truth.

[Nichole Rayne]

Okay....I am new on here but my problem with ptsd is not. Since I have never gotten any help for it, it has only gotten worse over the years. Not only hav I not had any help for the original problems I had (depression...anxiety) but I have had so much trauma happen to me over the years that it has caused me to become disassociated from any reality I ever knew. I knew what was goi g on with me while it was happening. I noticed over time along with added abuse and trauma...I would "turn into myself". Thats the way I explained it to anyone who would bombard me with questions about why I was so distant. I would explain to them thats what I did to protect myself. No one ever understood of course. It just got worse and worse so that nowbi will not go outside without a nerve pill. I look in the mirror and b I wonder where I went. I lay awake at night, begging for God to deliver me from this state but its of no use really. I am stuck.

 

[Chava]

Who calls you crazy? Are you getting any help (therapy)? Welcome to the forum. :)

 

[Nichole Rayne]

Who calls you crazy? Are you getting any help (therapy)? Welcome to the forum. :)

Y Thank you! Everyone calls me crazy. No i am not seeing a therapist. I know i need to really bad. And i will eventually. I have never been officially diagnosed so hopefully yall do not shun me for that but ibknow i have depersonalization disorder and ptsd and dissassociation.i have been stuck inside my head so long i th iknow what it is by now. It makes me overwhelmingly sad when i have a momentvof clarity and see how I am.I have to get better because I see nothing alive in the life I am living. Thanks for responding.

 

[Deleted member 1860]

Eh, heck with the normies. They have no idea what its like to have PTSD.....give them five minutes in our shoes and they'd crawl up in a ball and cry like babies! Ok, slight exaggeration, but not by much.

Welcome to the forum. You're not crazy!

 

[Friday]

Welcome to the forum

 

[intothelight]

Since I have never gotten any help for it, it has only gotten worse over the years.

Welcome to the forum!

Getting help is really the first step in getting better. This forum has a lot of information and there are a lot of things you can do on your own to help yourself manage symptoms and to improve the your own present. I hope you find the site beneficial.

 

[Ghostybear73]

Welcome to the forum :)

 

[Deleted member 28740]

Welcome Nichole. Long path took me here and have found those I call friends that I can express and be myself with. Not shunned or given the what the hell happened to you or is wrong with you look.

 

[Namenotdiagnosis]

Welcome x if they want to see crazy they haven't met me !!!!

 

[notsurewheretoturn]

Welcome to the forum Nichole. Who defines normal anyway? Usually the ones sitting in their ivory towers.

We are here because PTSD is in our lives one way or another, you are not on your own with this. Sometimes just knowing that can help.

Feel free to ask questions, there really are no stupid ones.
Feel free to read what others have said and gone through
Feel free to comment or add your thoughts to our own
Feel free to scream and shout and vent if you need to
Feel free to cry, we've all been there.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I have been called worse things yet I also know the truth and no one can take this away from me. I am glad you found this place. May it help you as much as it has helped me. I believe you are not crazy at all.

 

[Grace under pressure]

Hi. I'm new to the forum as well. My husband is understanding to a point. He loves me and tries to help when he sees my "animal trapped in a corner" mode coming on. I know by the look on his face, though, that he doesn't get it really. I'm seeing a therapist and it is helping to some degree, but I'm hoping that this forum will be a place where I can post on a regular basis and get some support and feedback. I hope you get the same.