and not feel that my living in all means is dependent on others.
Today I have in grasp what I so long been longing for, a job that will secure my own income and make me able to control my own living. I hope this will work out, this trial month at the work that now is set to start in October. :D And I feel so secure that it will as this is a major opportunity to work with not only my creative mind but also with animals safty and best in mind. I will not be judged for my PTSD. They only see my qualitys.
The first month I'll learn the basics of the company and update their website and focus on becoming a part of the company. After that I'll supposed to become their product developer. This is big for me, as I've been to sick to work or study the past three years all I thought I could hope for, now when I started to work for the purpose to come back to a work, to get a employee as is a advertise-seller by phone, or in a fast-food restaurant. As it both is few jobs out there and history of sickness usually make it even harder to get a job at all. And I have in my grasp something that I really thought I could just dream about to get. But I have a chance now, it's so close and I will hunt for that dream to become true. I will absolutely do my best and bring all my focus to it.
My heart is stronger, my lungs can breath easier, my weight is finally going down again...lost all I gained again under the summer in just a few days. The glowing ashes inside me is starting to build up to a roaring flame. This is it, I jump aboard on the train...now there is just a short journey until I will be on the most exiting adventure there is for me. Creating my OWN LIFE.
Today I have in grasp what I so long been longing for, a job that will secure my own income and make me able to control my own living. I hope this will work out, this trial month at the work that now is set to start in October. :D And I feel so secure that it will as this is a major opportunity to work with not only my creative mind but also with animals safty and best in mind. I will not be judged for my PTSD. They only see my qualitys.
The first month I'll learn the basics of the company and update their website and focus on becoming a part of the company. After that I'll supposed to become their product developer. This is big for me, as I've been to sick to work or study the past three years all I thought I could hope for, now when I started to work for the purpose to come back to a work, to get a employee as is a advertise-seller by phone, or in a fast-food restaurant. As it both is few jobs out there and history of sickness usually make it even harder to get a job at all. And I have in my grasp something that I really thought I could just dream about to get. But I have a chance now, it's so close and I will hunt for that dream to become true. I will absolutely do my best and bring all my focus to it.
My heart is stronger, my lungs can breath easier, my weight is finally going down again...lost all I gained again under the summer in just a few days. The glowing ashes inside me is starting to build up to a roaring flame. This is it, I jump aboard on the train...now there is just a short journey until I will be on the most exiting adventure there is for me. Creating my OWN LIFE.
