Cavegirl
Silver Member
Just over 3 years ago I completely lost my sh*t and long story short wound up being forced to quit my job as a legal assistant. I was on disability for about a year and a half and then my psychiatrist said I was able to go back to work. No job. I looked and looked and looked for work. My unemployment ran out as I didn't have much accrued because I was out so long. I had nothing. So I decided maybe I'd try for my dream. Finish school. I was overcoming the hardest point in my life and I was going to try to go for my goal???
Well, tomorrow is my last final of the term. I have very nearly completed my first year. 6 more to go, and I'll be a Nurse Practitioner.
I was so afraid to go back. I was so afraid that I wouldn't be able to focus, and I'd miss to much class. I took one class online every term and took hybrid classes (they are in class and online) as much as I could. I've had a pretty rough term and I am so grateful that I could take my math stuff online. I missed a lot of classes. But you know what? I'm on the President's list. 4.0 all year. It looks very good for me to make it again this term also.
If you'd have told me 3 years ago when I was at rock bottom that I'd not only go back to school, which I'd been dreaming of for 20 years, but make straight A's all year, I'd have NEVER believed you. I don't want to get all religious as many don't share my beliefs, but I know in my heart that it was God's grace helping me. Helping me focus on my studies, they honestly sometimes felt like a lifeline. They offered a distraction to what was going on and every time I was finished I felt good about myself. Something that was honestly lacking for a long time.
I wish so much that I'd have known back then that I could do this. My life wasn't always going to be at rock bottom.
I still struggle of course, but Thank God, I'm making it through. I'm here.
Well, tomorrow is my last final of the term. I have very nearly completed my first year. 6 more to go, and I'll be a Nurse Practitioner.
I was so afraid to go back. I was so afraid that I wouldn't be able to focus, and I'd miss to much class. I took one class online every term and took hybrid classes (they are in class and online) as much as I could. I've had a pretty rough term and I am so grateful that I could take my math stuff online. I missed a lot of classes. But you know what? I'm on the President's list. 4.0 all year. It looks very good for me to make it again this term also.
If you'd have told me 3 years ago when I was at rock bottom that I'd not only go back to school, which I'd been dreaming of for 20 years, but make straight A's all year, I'd have NEVER believed you. I don't want to get all religious as many don't share my beliefs, but I know in my heart that it was God's grace helping me. Helping me focus on my studies, they honestly sometimes felt like a lifeline. They offered a distraction to what was going on and every time I was finished I felt good about myself. Something that was honestly lacking for a long time.
I wish so much that I'd have known back then that I could do this. My life wasn't always going to be at rock bottom.
I still struggle of course, but Thank God, I'm making it through. I'm here.
