Too dissociated for hypervigilance?

[white hyacinth]

Does anyone else feel like they're too dissociated most of the time to be hypervigilant? I get hypervigilant sometimes, but not very often because most of the time I'm in a fog, on a different planet, numb, etc. I also don't leave the house very often.

 

[mindys1550]

I was like that. Too numb to get scared most of the time. I wasn't even aware of what scared me.

 

[Sandstone]

I don't think there is any obligation to be hypervigilant.

 

[Ladygdala]

I was hyper vigilant fir a lot of my life then it went into extreme cases when I got too deep into drugs and into my first relationship. (Both happened same time. Ex was an extreme manipulator, user) I was in extreme hyper vigilance for a number of years, had to quit school, my job and literally going outside. I started to develop disconnect in bits when exposing myself to places where I would have panic attacks. Then the disconnect finally became full blown and that’s where I’m at now. I just miss the awareness.

 

[Overcoming]

I have gone back and forth between the two.:confused: not rapidly or anything. Different things trigger both at times .

 

[Qwerty2424]

I can seem to understand to a degree. I feel like I'm buried under super heavy emotions waiting to crush me or wondering how to look normal because I don't know how to react, because I don't feel anything other then awkward and how people stare. Them asking why I don't cry or react but at other times react well beyond what the situation should garner