Triggered.

[Purpose_]

So.. My sister just told me that my depression and etc. is an excuse...........

The lump in my throat feels like im trying to swallow a jaw-breaker.
She says this as if... she didn't witness me have 100+ seizures.

It wouldn't even get to me that much if it weren't for the fact that.. my whole family constantly feels something negative towards me, simply because they don't understand and to be quite frank, purposely do not want to understand.

Loved ones... yeah right.

They paint this picture to people that everything is all lollipops and rainbows.
So when I start to tell the truth, people don't believe me.

My definition of living in hell is when you're screaming in pain and agony, and even though you're surrounded
by a ton of people... No one looks to find out why.

And to think. I was actually having an okay day.

 

[joeylittle]

Hey, @Purpose_ - I'm sorry you are going through so much, and am really glad you are here posting.

Can I ask a question? What about taking whatever's left of the settlement money and leaving where you are, totally? Moving to a much smaller and cheaper community? I know it would be a big thing, and a lot to take on, but it seems to me that priority one has to be getting out of that house.

 

[SeanCharles]

:tup: Nice job here... I feel empathy for the pain you feel. I can totally relate where the seizures are concerned, I've been through some myself. To think that depression and everything else is an excuse is just a pile of :poop: Being a suffer, I know that my own PTSD and whatever else is me! What happened to have caused this was not my choice, or my decision either they were experiences that I had no control over.

It wouldn't even get to me that much if it weren't for the fact that.. my whole family constantly feels something negative towards me, simply because they don't understand and to be quite frank, purposely do not want to understand.

Do they know who or what caused your conditions? Obviously they appear closed minded and extremely judgemental. These kind of people really make me wonder if they aren't learning what their purpose here is.

Loved ones... yeah right.

This isn't love! They obviously don't know what love in its many forms is. This is their flaw, not you!

They paint this picture to people that everything is all lollipops and rainbows.
So when I start to tell the truth, people don't believe me.

There seems to be some deep issues here... My advice, share with whom you wish, those who see the truth will belive, those that choose not see the truth don't matter.

My definition of living in hell is when you're screaming in pain and agony, and even though you're surrounded
by a ton of people... No one looks to find out why.

Excellent example here! I can't agree more here...

Stay positive, At least you've found a place where you'll find supportive and helpful people.

Welcome aboard!

 

[Ka-9]

Those types of comments send me right off- I'm sorry they failed you today. Hopefully they will learn the effect that can have on you soon, and have the decency to aplogize then.

I worked with a guy who had been an NCO/ of a specialty unit in Afghanastan. I knew several other guys he worked alongside, or same regiment etc who definitely suffered PTSD. Yet this idiot said to me one night at work "there's no PTSD, that's all bullshit to grab benefits and have free time". I was astounded, but too ashamed to call him out, as I already knew I had mental health issues I was hiding, while functioning at a level I could barely operate at. To this day I still get angry and want to slap him.

That's why I'm glad places like this exist. If you haven't earned the t-shirt, you'll just never get it.

 

[SerenityJMP]

I have complete empathy. "I get," the whole, FAMILY & Close loved ones are the first to dismiss our pangs and mental distress severity. I'm right there, right now! thanks for your post my friend. let's continue to educate ourselves and seek those who understand and support us in our journey to survive and have peace.. #teammates.
Misunderstood
Grateful fellow PTSD challenged
#SerenityJMP

So.. My sister just told me that my depression and etc. is an excuse...........

The lump in my throat...

 

[lostforgottensoul]

I know, my family is the same way along with drama, drama, drama....Xs 10000000!

:hug:s

 

[Purpose_]

Hey, @Purpose_ - I'm sorry you are going through so much, and am really glad yo...

Its all gone now. The second I got it, everyone stuck their hand in my pocket. And the little bit of support I got completely stopped. Taking that I dont have a steady income...It was only a matter or time. I tried to move but because I haven't built much credit and wasn't working, I still couldn't afford to live on my own. So I asked "friends" to pay for a room, to no avail. so...... here I am.

 

[Purpose_]

:tup: Nice job here... I feel empathy for the pain you feel. I can totally relate where the seizur...

Thanks for reading..
They're the cause of my problems. And I hate saying that because I don't want to sound like I'm putting blame on others.
But I don't know how to see it any other way.

I have a post about it.

 

[Purpose_]

I know, my family is the same way along with drama, drama, drama....Xs 10000000!

:hug:s[/QUO...

Thats exactly how my family is too.

Thanks for the cyber hug =]

 

[Purpose_]

Those types of comments send me right off- I'm sorry they failed you today. Hopefully they will learn th...

Its the SADDEST thing ever because it seems to only be taken seriously after someone does something outrageous and detrimental. A shame =[

 

[EveHarrington]

:hug: