Triggers From Relating To Others

[Intrepid]

After a couple of weeks of responding to other people's posts on here I'm reminded why I've avoided this sort of forum for so long. It's triggering. I remember reading about PTSD in the DSM-IV several years ago, and not being able to get past the first few paragraphs. It's triggering. I seem pretty stable as long as I stay isolated from others who have the same problems. As I spend time on here reading other's experience I'm getting afraid that I'll have get off the site for a while.

Honestly, I thing that I'm relating to others on this site, and that a part of my would rather not. A part of me wants all of the trauma, and its effects, to just go away. This site makes it too real.

Just sayin'.

 

[joeylittle]

I thought you might appreciate this: Reading Forum Increases Symptoms!

 

[Friday]

I remember reading about PTSD in the DSM-IV several years ago, and not being able to get past the first few paragraphs..

Soooooo did that. I had classes in school where PTSD was actually taught for various reasons, and my 4point / this A minus should be an A because/ extra credit revving ass skipped class & took the hit on the exams / papers purely to avoid it.

The straw that broke the camel's back this run was another vet I was friendly with in passing finding out I'm ex-service (love the damn chick-card, I hid with that for years even in places full of LEOs & Vets. People just don't think. But I was already getting symptomatic / things were leaking out and I let something slip after years of hiding), and started talking PTSD to me (after 2 years of holding on by my fingertips, that what knocked me down the rabbit hole). For maybe 5 seconds. S'all it took. It was as little as "I'm doing a lot better with the PTSD stuff, now." I paled, froze like icewater froze everywhere, put my weapon away all in slow-mo. And made it to my car before having a really violent breakdown. Broke my wrist. Seriously damaged my car.

I'm glad it happened, now. A year ago last week, come to think of it. Not glad for this past sucky sucky year. Glad to be getting a handle on it, instead of it having a handle on me.

 

[Karen12]

After a couple of weeks of responding to other people's posts on here I'm reminded why I've avoided this sort of forum for so long. It's triggering.

I have the same problem, especially with the car accident threads. I've been in two serious accidents, neither my fault, one left me permanently disabled. The more recent accident was just a few months ago.

Why is it every time you tell someone you were in an accident they INSIST on telling you every terrifying, gruesome detail of the worst accident they've ever been in, or their cousin's-friend's-daughter's-dog-trainer was in? Why on earth would they want to describe that to someone who was traumatized in a car accident? Sometimes I wonder if those people even have two I.Q. points to rub together.

I just can't stand hearing yet another car accident story. I skip over the accident descriptions in those threads. (I can't watch or hear them on TV or in movies, either.)

 

[Friday]

Whoops... Meant to put this above:

The triggery stressish stuff from this site... I'm also glad of. There are times I need to walk away (above, actually), but the more little jagged pieces get knocked off, the smoother things go. Exposure therapy. lol. Oy. Sometimes I feel like I'm polishing the heck outta one little piece of a mountain range, but I'm not fond of pain. If this piece gets polished? One less jagged spot to get drug over later.

 

[Recovery4Me]

...If this piece gets polished? One less jagged spot to get drug over later.

I can feel your pain but I can not stop :roflmao:...I guess I am entering the darkside comic relief zone with you.


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@Intrepid ...one thing about this site is that there are many routes to take in order to ease into healing. Find one path that allows you slow & careful entry while enjoying the support of the gang. I really owe a lot to the many well developed areas of the forum as well as the staff and members. It has been a Godsend to me.

Welcome aboard!