Sufferer Trying to cope with symptoms & my relationship is suffering

[IamJenna]

You are NOT being selfish, it sounds like if she wasn't willing to read the suggested book she is be...

Thanks for this comment. She is pretty immature at times. It's hard to get perspective though cos I get so easily triggered by the spiteful comments sometimes & I can't seem to respond to it properly.
I end up in flashbacks & it just messes up my head & knocks me off balance for a while again.
I am in therapy yeah been there for a little over a year now. I'm hoping that in time these symptoms will lessen & I can have more control over myself.
It's just all this worry over security in this relationship & how that afffects my housing situation as I don't have a family home to turn to so it is causing more stress on top of trying to deal with the trauma.
Sharing it here at least is the first step. I guess in time the right path will reveal itself if I keep my head clear & just keep trying one step at a time x

 

[ladee]

You do have a lot of insight .... hope you realize that.... and it's normal to be concerned about your future... but that hasn't happened yet... One of the hardest things we seem to have so much trouble with is ruminating about the future... we all do it... so you are not alone in worrying about things that haven't happened yet....

Very good to hear you have already been in therapy for a year.... laying a good foundation.... in spite of not being understood...
Others will never understand unless they have experienced what we have, or feel what we feel... and that's ok.. because then you find a place like this, and it's almost like finding 'home'.... where you are understood... and heard, and supported...

Glad you are here... it will make things a little easier.... gentle hugs if you accept....

 

[Fayne Jane]

Hang in there and keep working on YOU

I have to agree getting a sense of yourself is really important. I had one and lost it after my attack and now I am rebuilding or re finding out who I am now. Your recovery is the most important thing!!! You are never really alone, there are people here and every where to help. This forum can help you to never feel alone.

 

[Sargonnas]

Hey,
This is my first post. I'm really nervous to write anything but I'm trying to reach out despite...

Dear Jenna, I to have only recently come to terms with flash backs that were hidden away under lock and key. And of all places it was at church that opened Pandoras box. It has been over a year now and I am only scratching the surface of my childhood. Broken family, living with an abusive gang member father. At times I want to lash out and scream or just smash something to make me feel better but it doesn't resolve the issues. The hardest thing is to find peace